Last night. I feel so incredibly lonely on a daily basis especially at work. I really miss my old work place but mostly my colleagues. I never really had a large group of friends growing up and when I started working there, I became good friends with a lot of colleagues and really close with 2 who worked in the same department as me. We no longer keep in touch as much as we used to when I had just left so it's not an everyday thing like it was back then. I could probably keep my phone turned off these days and no one would notice. I loved being part of a group and feeling cared for. The older I get, the harder it is to grow and maintain good friendships. They were like family to me and I miss having people who actually gave two shits about me unlike those who are supposed to. It's silly to admit how much I envy their close bond. I cannot be more lonely, unhappy, depressed, anxious about the future and angry at how much crap I've dealt with growing up and still am today. I simply cannot seem to catch a break or experience long periods of happiness where no major changes or headaches take place.