My dog has been annoying me to no end for a while now.
She's had diarrhea just a month ago, went to the vets, meds, chicken and rice yada yada. Was super worried as she was behaving weirdly (was thankfully "just" the heat). Meds worked. Today, diarreah, again. I will be going to the vets on monday, this time also taking a poo sample to check for giardia. I know she's not at fault, but every single month there is some shit or other where I have to take her to the vets, or have to worry that something is seriously wrong with her. I can't take it any more! How am I gonna deal when she's older?
Just now she's smacking her lips and licking herself and I just want to fucking scream!
Any time I sit at my kichen table she just keeps fucking staring at me! I have to actually visually block her from looking at me because I become so insanely enraged!
I can't even have a calm evening watching telly because she keeps looking at me, staring any time I dare to move! There is no momemt where I feel unobserved. Ever.
I can't take a single step without her either walking after me, or staring at me like a wounded puppy because I told her to stay on her bed. I can't even pee in peace.
She's always in my way! I don’t know how many times I've told her off for standing right in the middle of where I want to go and she just fucking never learns! I asked her, told her, physically moved her, been nice, stern, pissed, etc.
I guess really it's because she realised that I feel terrible for not having as much time for her as I'd like. I do walk her enough but I don't do any sort of training any more. We maybe play with sticks for 15 minutes two to three times a week, but that's all the "work" we do. I do try to walk her 3 times a day, and one of them being longer but it's just not always feasible. So it's the same old 30 minute round the park route a lit of the time.
I just feel like a terrible dog mom and I think she learned that and takes full advantage in a dog kind of way. Making me resentful, making everything even worse as now I am angry at her, feeling terrible for being angry at her, AND feeling terrible for not doing enough. And her constant watchfulness of what I'm doing is just bringing me to my boiling point.