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thank you for listening, it means the world to me. I’ve tried talking to friends about it but they just brush it off because I’m known as the ‘fun one who loves to party’

I’ve started making a list tonight of triggers to discuss on Tuesday 🙂
Of course love, I know what its like. I can’t imagine how frustrating it must be when you try to open up to friends and they miss the point.

It’s such a good idea to make a list! You‘re doing such an amazing thing for yourself, no exaggeration.
Sorry to go back to my own experiences, but when I had to go to a doctor about a mental health issue I was ashamed of, I wrote so much down beforehand, and it helped so much.
 
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Supplements like ashwagandha, rhodiola rosea and PS (phosphatidylserine) are meant to help

High cortisol also makes you insulin resistant and gives you belly large 😩
Thank you so much for this, have just ordered some.

@DoctorWho Please don't feel ashamed, I know myself what alcohol can do, all the best for Tuesday.
 
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A bit TMI, but PMS after going off my meds is truly something else. I alternate between being on the verge of crying like an idiot and being angry at everyone and everything. I just wish I was a man and did not have to go through this rit.

The highlight of my day was going on a walk and meeting and petting a huge adorable poodle 🥰 Dogs always make me feel better.
 
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I have booked my first appointment with a counsellor today.
For almost a year I have been crying whenever I'm alone but not wanting to reach out as I don't feel I have any real problems to warrant such sadness. Hoping this is the start of something good.
Any advice on preparing for my first session would be appreciated 😊
 
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A bit TMI, but PMS after going off my meds is truly something else. I alternate between being on the verge of crying like an idiot and being angry at everyone and everything. I just wish I was a man and did not have to go through this rit.

The highlight of my day was going on a walk and meeting and petting a huge adorable poodle 🥰 Dogs always make me feel better.
How are you feeling today?

I have booked my first appointment with a counsellor today.
For almost a year I have been crying whenever I'm alone but not wanting to reach out as I don't feel I have any real problems to warrant such sadness. Hoping this is the start of something good.
Any advice on preparing for my first session would be appreciated 😊
It's okay to go slow and at your own pace.

Hope it goes well.
 
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I haven't read any of this thread. But I pass a lot of my time reading the Katie Price threads lol.
I am 47, my life seems very pointless. There's not one day when I don't have feelings of wishing I wasn't here.
I've felt like this for at least the last 30 years. My family is not close, I see my parents once a year, not from choice, just because that's what is right apparently. Spend Xmas day with them. I dread it!
I just hate existing. Seriously wish I'd never been born.
Sorry for sharing, but that's how I feel.
 
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I have booked my first appointment with a counsellor today.
For almost a year I have been crying whenever I'm alone but not wanting to reach out as I don't feel I have any real problems to warrant such sadness. Hoping this is the start of something good.
Any advice on preparing for my first session would be appreciated 😊
Just read this, hope it went well .
 
Hi all, jumping on this thread. I think I’m going back on my setraline. Very low mood and generally not coping very well. Bit scared as it makes me feel very sick, headachey and with loss of appetitive for a while. I’m in quite a sad place right now and struggle with everyday life. Any tips / advice appreciated.

Does anyone else on sertraline get heartburn after taking them sometimes?
I woke up in the night with it and its still there now
I read up about this, the tablet can burn your inside (especially if you snap it in half to make it easier to swallow) Always take it with a huge glass of water or drink of choice. I hope you feel better soon 😊
 
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I haven't read any of this thread. But I pass a lot of my time reading the Katie Price threads lol.
I am 47, my life seems very pointless. There's not one day when I don't have feelings of wishing I wasn't here.
I've felt like this for at least the last 30 years. My family is not close, I see my parents once a year, not from choice, just because that's what is right apparently. Spend Xmas day with them. I dread it!
I just hate existing. Seriously wish I'd never been born.
Sorry for sharing, but that's how I feel.
Sending you love. Have you tried any therapy or medication before? It's okay to read the Katie thread!

Hi all, jumping on this thread. I think I’m going back on my setraline. Very low mood and generally not coping very well. Bit scared as it makes me feel very sick, headachey and with loss of appetitive for a while. I’m in quite a sad place right now and struggle with everyday life. Any tips / advice appreciated.
How long were you on the medication for before?

I know it's cliched but try to take things one moment at a time .
 
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How are you feeling today?
I’m okay today, thank you! 🙂 Kinda weak but in a much better place all in all. How are you?
I haven't read any of this thread. But I pass a lot of my time reading the Katie Price threads lol.
I am 47, my life seems very pointless. There's not one day when I don't have feelings of wishing I wasn't here.
I've felt like this for at least the last 30 years. My family is not close, I see my parents once a year, not from choice, just because that's what is right apparently. Spend Xmas day with them. I dread it!
I just hate existing. Seriously wish I'd never been born.
Sorry for sharing, but that's how I feel.
I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. Have you ever talked to a specialist about it?
 
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@Libbylulu Thinking of you. How are you feeling today? ♥
@Pariszai This is a really good step! Proud of you for taking it. I hope the meeting went well. Let us know! ♥
Personally very down and anxious today, scared, anxious, nervous, disappointed, the list goes on and on. It is 4 am here and sleep is not happening. I am tired of life in general. I have really been trying so hard. Just want to be at a safe and stable baseline.
 
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TW- Substance misuse and suicide attempts.

Hi everyone, i havent posted on here for a while.
Many of you know, i have mental health issues and past substance misuse issues (i will regret the day my gp ever gave me opiates!). Since July 2020 i have been off work (im a social worker by profession). I got diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar 2, and i have been living a very sheltered life since then (i did try and kill myself and was sectioned). My partner has been brilliant, i mean i have literally been treated like a kid, had to tell my partner and family where i was going etc. Its not as bad as it sounds, they did it initially so i couldnt go and buy oxycontin which now im very grateful for. At the time i wasnt happy because if anyone knows- being dope sick is a very real thing.
Anyway, my life has literally been me not seeing anyone, i dont even have social media anymore. I get the kids up and ready for school, and some days i go back to bed until its time to pick them up. I have had no energy or motivation to do anything. Its embarrassing that im 35 and i still feel like a teenager. And the person i was 10 years ago seems like a completely different person.
Anyway, for a few weeks i have felt that im ready to do something with my life. I am sick of feeling like this, i just want a nice routine, and i want to go back and earn some money. (I get PIP for my mental health), some sick pay and Child Benefit, but its not a lot and for the first time ever i am struggling a little with money.

Last weekend i saw a job advertised for a charity. Its a "peer liaison recovery worker" for a charity, based at the police station. Part of the requirements was lived experience in either mental health, drugs and alcohol, or criminal justice. And for the first time i felt excited and feel i could support others who have gone through similar to me. Plus the fact i am actually a "professional" so i have been on both sides of services- i have been both a professional and service user. The hours are only 15 hours a week, but i think thats good because i havent been in work since June 2020. So i have talked with them and i have an interview arranged for Wednesday. They sounded really positive and think i have all the right experience (im sure they say that to everyone though!). But they said it would be really beneficial for me to share my story with the interviewers, and that is what i am scared of. What if they think i still have too many issues. I dont want to come across badly. I am scared incase it goes against me even though they said lived experience is so important to the role. I am half tempted to duck it off even though its the first time i have felt excited about something in a long time. The money is not as good as my full time social work position, but im not even doing it for the money tbh.

I guess i am just scared as its the first time i am putting myself out there, and im trying not to get my hopes up even though i would love this opportunity and i feel i would have a lot to offer (based on both my professional and my personal experience). My partner said its up to me, in the past when i have talked about going back to work he said it was a bad idea, but even he can see the positives of this. For years i worked non stop as a social worker, working every day until midnight, it was very demanding and i burnt out. Whereas this position- i wont have the same level of responsibility, its not as good money wise (although if you actually break down the exact amount of hours i actually worked as a social worker it ended up about £2 per hour regardless of the decent salary!). But it would get me out of the house a couple of days a week, it will get me into a nice little routine, and i hope it will transfer some motivation into other aspects of my life.

I know there is no guarentee i will even get the job, and im trying not to get my hopes up, but im worried that if i talk about my suicide attempt then they will think i have too much lived experience, if that makes sense! I dont want to come across badly, and they said they want me to share my story. I dunno, im probably over thinking it all.

Sorry for waffling on, i havent told anyone about this and i figured this was the best place. :)
 
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My anxiety is through the roof today, I can’t think clearly or shake off this hyperventilation. My meds used to take the edge off it, now I will just bury myself in a film or a book.
 
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Does anyone else get really high levels of anxiety when something is due on the calendar, it can be anything at all from something small like a appointment at the vets or a school parents evening. Or even knowing I need to go to the shop for food the next day. Does anyone have any tips to manage it or regulate it at least.
 
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Had a few good days this week and today it’s started again. I rang the GP but they can’t offer me anything until next week and just said if I am in danger to present at A+E which of course I’m not going to do.
 
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I can’t believe how bad mental health services are.

At the last two midwife appointments I’ve had I have explained how much I’m struggling with my mental health. She told me to ring the GP. I’ve finally built up the courage to ring the doctors today and he basically read the text off the NHS website about what to do to help myself when pregnant 🙈
I said I don’t feel supported by my midwife and do I have to get to absolute crisis point before they take me seriously?

He ended with telling me he won’t prescribe me any medication as there are risks involved and to ask my midwife to refer me to a perinatal mental health team (I was hoping she’d do this last time I saw her)

There is no point to my post but I am normally a very weak and anxious person and I’m determined to fight for myself and get some kind of support off of somebody who understands.

Does anyone else get really high levels of anxiety when something is due on the calendar, it can be anything at all from something small like a appointment at the vets or a school parents evening. Or even knowing I need to go to the shop for food the next day. Does anyone have any tips to manage it or regulate it at least.
Yes! I have massive struggles with anxiety over every day things. I’m a nervous mess at any type of appointment, get nervous about meeting friends, bumping into people when I’m out etc. I always think it must be part of having social anxiety. I don’t have any tips I’m afraid but know you’re not alone. Have too ever spoken to the GP about this? They may be able to help you 😃
 
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I think what people don’t realise how frustrating it is when we’re told “don’t suffer in silence, ask for help” only to realise there really isn’t any help out there. Sometimes I find speaking to the Samaritans helpful, I don’t expect to get any support from my gp. Luckily although my mental health is bad I still have a lot of good days where I’m functional and can make up for the bad days I suppose.
 
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Sorry to post but I’m a very poorly person and I know it, I don't know where to turn
Anxiety and depression for a long time but now it is so much worse and all because I can’t let go of him or ask him what he feels for me. I have no appetite, have torn my nails to shreds and I shake a lot. Nurse told me I was obese on Friday and that didn’t make life easier
I am at a loss for what to do, im having counselling, on my 5th antidepressant, im healthy eating and all sorts but I feel worse than I ever have and that makes me feel so desperate, right now I’m convinced the only option is a scary one
 
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