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God i dont even cry anymore. I just sit 😐

I feel like now the sertraline is starting to work on my anxiety i have nothing else. I existed on anxiety, rushing around from 1 panic to the next.
Sertraline made me feel like that. Everything was just meh and it killed my libido dead. That’s when I changed to Venlafaxine.
 
Just coming to vent about depression. I just can't cope. I feel half dead inside most of the time. Everything is muted. Stuff I'm looking forward to just seems like a chore. I feel like a chore to be around. I just want to withdraw even though I know it's the worst thing I could do.

Had a counselling appointment today and he told me to try really hard to enjoy myself this week and allow myself to be silly? I don't enjoy things, I've tried, this isn't going away. I genuinely don't want to feel this way anymore but I don't know what to do. It all just feels so hopeless atm. I've had a bad day today so idk if thats just amplifying everything.
 
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Just coming to vent about depression. I just can't cope. I feel half dead inside most of the time. Everything is muted. Stuff I'm looking forward to just seems like a chore. I feel like a chore to be around. I just want to withdraw even though I know it's the worst thing I could do.

Had a counselling appointment today and he told me to try really hard to enjoy myself this week and allow myself to be silly? I don't enjoy things, I've tried, this isn't going away. I genuinely don't want to feel this way anymore but I don't know what to do. It all just feels so hopeless atm. I've had a bad day today so idk if thats just amplifying everything.
Sorry to hear. It’s a proper vicious cycle at times I know. Do you know what’s triggering your feelings? I feel very similar and couldn’t even push myself to exercise today. For me I know my hormone levels are low and I’m seriously lonely. Neither I can rectify at the moment, but sometimes just having a reason for it makes you feel slightly leas crap.
 
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Depression just sucks the joy out of everything and makes life hard work. I’m sending big hugs to all who need right now. This thread is such a great safe place to let our feelings out. Someone is always about to reply. So no matter how low or miserable you feel.... post away ❤
 
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Sertraline made me feel like that. Everything was just meh and it killed my libido dead. That’s when I changed to Venlafaxine.
does sertraline do that? I’ve been on it a while and my sex drive is nothing like it used to be - I didn’t realise. I’m a bit scared to swap meds because sertraline works for me x
 
I don’t know if I have depression or not, some symptoms I feel I have then others I don’t. Had anxiety since I was 14 (had counselling and meds) but I feel “cured” of it now, maybe teenage hormones? Been under so much stress lately and feel unable to cope. Not getting joy out of things I normally enjoy, taking my eye of the prize and feeling like I’m barely getting through the days. I feel no energy, so tired, barely sleeping and feel like a zombie. Even feel that my work is being affected as I have no energy. Have nobody to talk to about this as I am “happy, bubbly and active” around others, I feel so low.
Came to a point last night where I said I just needed to phone in sick today and tomorrow to sort myself out. Didn’t tell work it was for MH reasons and now they think I have bloody covid so may have to do a PCR before allowed back😪
It felt so good to write this!
 
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does sertraline do that? I’ve been on it a while and my sex drive is nothing like it used to be - I didn’t realise. I’m a bit scared to swap meds because sertraline works for me x
Technically all SNRI’s do because of the way they work. I chose Venlafaxine because it is an SNRI and has lower incidences of sexual dysfunction, but is also prescribed to relieve menopausal symptoms (and I think a lot of my issues are perimenopause). Both have their plus and negative points. So if it works for you otherwise, then stick with it. I just knew it wasn’t right because I couldn’t orgasm anymore and I also found I had no positive effects from exercise endorphins. I also found it worked better for anxiety, although I did have to up the dose. None of them are perfect and I still have suicidal thoughts and feelings of hopelessness, but I think that requires therapy (which I’m starting again next week).

I don’t know if I have depression or not, some symptoms I feel I have then others I don’t. Had anxiety since I was 14 (had counselling and meds) but I feel “cured” of it now, maybe teenage hormones? Been under so much stress lately and feel unable to cope. Not getting joy out of things I normally enjoy, taking my eye of the prize and feeling like I’m barely getting through the days. I feel no energy, so tired, barely sleeping and feel like a zombie. Even feel that my work is being affected as I have no energy. Have nobody to talk to about this as I am “happy, bubbly and active” around others, I feel so low.
Came to a point last night where I said I just needed to phone in sick today and tomorrow to sort myself out. Didn’t tell work it was for MH reasons and now they think I have bloody covid so may have to do a PCR before allowed back😪
It felt so good to write this!
I spent years telling doctors I’m not depressed, I just feel sad and ‘like a useless and broken robot’. I have terrible trust issues from childhood and adult trauma (I even have vivid dreams about being betrayed and dismissed). When I looked at my symptoms they described Borderline Personality Disorder, but I don’t cut myself so they are reluctant to diagnose me officially. It’s annoying really because everything is labelled as depression, but sometimes we’re just overwhelmed or there is a hormonal or physical reason behind our mood. Start writing a list of your symptoms day-to-day over a few weeks and see if a pattern is emerging that can possibly identify what’s going on. You can then talk to your GP and find a resolution. Covid has made us all really down and overwhelmed, but it’s important for you to see if it’s an ongoing thing or maybe you just need a break.

I feel really awful today. My asthma is bad and I had a horrendous anxiety dream. I’m so fed up with being ‘ducked up’. It’s exhausting and so lonely. I’ve just started a new role from home too so it’s happy, sweet smiley face all day! I just want to go back to bed! 😫
 
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There's also a BPD thread here too I've posted more there too but you can in my opinion also have the condition without self harming. It's also common in those who have trauma histories.

Hope you can rest a bit today.

I don’t know if I have depression or not, some symptoms I feel I have then others I don’t. Had anxiety since I was 14 (had counselling and meds) but I feel “cured” of it now, maybe teenage hormones? Been under so much stress lately and feel unable to cope. Not getting joy out of things I normally enjoy, taking my eye of the prize and feeling like I’m barely getting through the days. I feel no energy, so tired, barely sleeping and feel like a zombie. Even feel that my work is being affected as I have no energy. Have nobody to talk to about this as I am “happy, bubbly and active” around others, I feel so low.
Came to a point last night where I said I just needed to phone in sick today and tomorrow to sort myself out. Didn’t tell work it was for MH reasons and now they think I have bloody covid so may have to do a PCR before allowed back😪
It felt so good to write this!
The things you have already described would be depression in my book. A lot of people in my friend circle have actually already gone to therapy. One actually had the nickname smiley. It's hard managing that mask when you're struggling.

Hope you also got the chance to rest.

Do you have any family nearby? There's also charities you can email or phone if you need extra help too.
 
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There's also a BPD thread here too I've posted more there too but you can in my opinion also have the condition without self harming. It's also common in those who have trauma histories.

Hope you can rest a bit today.



The things you have already described would be depression in my book. A lot of people in my friend circle have actually already gone to therapy. One actually had the nickname smiley. It's hard managing that mask when you're struggling.

Hope you also got the chance to rest.

Do you have any family nearby? There's also charities you can email or phone if you need extra help too.
Thank you @rainbowlemon - do you know where the BPD thread is? I can’t seem to find it.
 
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Found it for you:

 
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Today was a weird day. I have a constant battle to fight thoughts of my ex, but for some reason I found myself googling him at lunchtime. I honestly don’t know what I thought I would achieve and all I could view was his LinkedIn so it was absolutely futile. I never look at him so I’m obviously having a really dark day. Thank God for home working as I think I would have had a meltdown otherwise! How is everyone else feeling? ❤
 
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Today was a weird day. I have a constant battle to fight thoughts of my ex, but for some reason I found myself googling him at lunchtime. I honestly don’t know what I thought I would achieve and all I could view was his LinkedIn so it was absolutely futile. I never look at him so I’m obviously having a really dark day. Thank God for home working as I think I would have had a meltdown otherwise! How is everyone else feeling? ❤
Do you feel like you do it to hurt yourself? That was always the case with me.

Im still just 😐 managed to shower. Ate. Drove around on GTA for a bit. I am back at work monday and i need to find a way to tune back in
 
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Do you feel like you do it to hurt yourself? That was always the case with me.

Im still just 😐 managed to shower. Ate. Drove around on GTA for a bit. I am back at work monday and i need to find a way to tune back in
Yeah that’s has been suggested. I think I expected to see him happy with someone else, which wouldn’t really matter anyway because he didn’t want me. I also sometimes get this really weird feeling like he’s pulling on my energy (my whole face starts to itch and I instantly feel really drained). It comes out of nowhere and isn’t ever triggered by anything obvious. I’m sure that’s actually nuts because I doubt he even remembers my name anymore, let alone thinks of me). I still love him and don’t think I’ll ever get over it because it was the last straw before I had a breakdown in 2019. I just can’t believe it’s still so raw after 2 years of no contact.

Little steps are good and at least you have a few more days without work. ❤
 
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I still love him and don’t think I’ll ever get over it because it was the last straw before I had a breakdown in 2019. I just can’t believe it’s still so raw after 2 years of no contact.
Sending you so much love. Sometimes, we don’t get over a person totally but we get over them enough over time - we do get to a point where they won’t hold that much power over you. ❤
 
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Yeah that’s has been suggested. I think I expected to see him happy with someone else, which wouldn’t really matter anyway because he didn’t want me. I also sometimes get this really weird feeling like he’s pulling on my energy (my whole face starts to itch and I instantly feel really drained). It comes out of nowhere and isn’t ever triggered by anything obvious. I’m sure that’s actually nuts because I doubt he even remembers my name anymore, let alone thinks of me). I still love him and don’t think I’ll ever get over it because it was the last straw before I had a breakdown in 2019. I just can’t believe it’s still so raw after 2 years of no contact.

Little steps are good and at least you have a few more days without work. ❤
Im a strong believer that people come into your life for a reason. One day you'll wonder why you ever looked back. I did for years but now its gone
 
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Sending you so much love. Sometimes, we don’t get over a person totally but we get over them enough over time - we do get to a point where they won’t hold that much power over you. ❤
Thank you. Yeah I think the reason it upsets me so much is because it makes me hate myself even more for being so dumb. I should be above this tit at my age! ❤
 
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Thank you. Yeah I think the reason it upsets me so much is because it makes me hate myself even more for being so dumb. I should be above this tit at my age! ❤
Don’t rush the process! Love is difficult. Heartbreak is difficult. You are doing the best you can. I spent six years mad at myself and someone because I couldn’t get over him. Only after that, the following two years, I started to make tangible progress once I allowed myself to be. You will get through it all. I believe in you. 😊
 
Don’t rush the process! Love is difficult. Heartbreak is difficult. You are doing the best you can. I spent six years mad at myself and someone because I couldn’t get over him. Only after that, the following two years, I started to make tangible progress once I allowed myself to be. You will get through it all. I believe in you. 😊
99% of me is so resolute on getting over it and forcing myself to push thoughts of him out of my head. It’s just those days where the littlest thing can trigger a thought that has me in tears for hours. When we first stopped speaking, I used to get these crippling chest pains, like my heart was physically breaking. I always thought I’ll know when I’m over it because I won’t feel that, but honestly I swear if I ever saw or spoke to him again, it would come back. He wasn’t even a significant partner, but I’ve honestly never felt that heartbroken. I’m forcing myself to date (not seriously), but just to give me something else to occupy my mind and stop the loneliness. I don’t want to waste too many years alone because I’m wasting what good years I have left!
 
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I haven't taken my meds in a week 😶
That really sucks, I’m so sorry. I’m in the same boat. I will be a total hypocrite and tell you to please phone the doctor though, seriously.
I just felt like mine weren’t working and making me even more tired, but it’s so dumb I know, and I have to take my own advice and ask for help, again. I really hope you do the same ❤
 
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