The Depression Thread #2

[Pollyanna263]

 

[ilovepizza21]

One of the worst things about me is that I love misery, in a way. I don’t want to feel this way yet I thrive off sadness or something. Don’t know how to explain it. I love torturing myself and overthinking.

I get what your saying here and feel exactly the same 🫂

Just to say I’m trying to read everyone’s posts, but I’m not having any luck replying beyond the really superficial.

My brain is just exhausted.

Hope everyone is doing okay. I will catch up properly soon

Sending you hugs Polly you are always so warm and give amazing advice it really doesn't go unnoticed 1🫂

I'm so depressed right now. Infertility, grief and trauma are kicking my a. Sorry to post out of the blue

This is why this thread was made never ever be sorry

 

[Pollyanna263]

I know you mean the wallowing in a good sense, but sometimes tis hard, a few years ago, I spent nearly 2 months in bed, I still have days like it now,

@Maid22 I missed this somehow and only just saw it. Just wanted to say I wasn’t ignoring you!
I absolutely have those days myself, I haven’t got dressed since Thursday (when I had to)

I wouldn’t ever tell anyone to ‘stop wallowing’ usually, I said it with kindness as AC said I wish I had someone to tell me to stop x

 

[ilovepizza21]

I'm so depressed right now. Infertility, grief and trauma are kicking my a. Sorry to post out of the blue

This is why this thread was made never ever be sorry

2 failed relationships ( one cheated, I dumped him and the other decided I wasn't for him as I had low self esteem, I did too much for him and his daughter and I had put on weight !!!) , stressful job, a miscarriage in the mix finally took its toll. I've been on anti depressants now for 4.5 years, an 8 week stay in St Pats Dublin in 2020. Straight into lockdown once I came home. I live alone so I definitely feel last few years have been tough!

Currently on sick leave from work. Attended my psychiatrist a few weeks ago and said I'm still not feeling great finding the mornings so tough. Low motivation, no energy etc. So I'm currently weaning off venlaflaxine ( was on max dose 375mg) along with citalopram 20mg.
In 2 weeks or so I will be starting zyban 150mg, has anyone been on this (its normally used to wean off cigarette addiction)
Thanks for reading

Sending hugs and I know how you feel I left my kids dad he was a narcissist and DV was really bad and I never knew how bad till I was out off it. He didn't hang about and jump straight into a relationship like 14years ment duck all... when I finally let someone in swept me of my feet I was never that happy with my ex about 7/8 weeks ago found out he was with his wife the whole time. Owed me 500 that I lent him he used me and was very clever with it. I just feel so unlovable all the time I never be good enough for someone one. So I know how feel 🫂

 

[Pollyanna263]

Monroe will often claim she’s depressed, but it’s usually a shield against criticism

Same with Hinch feigning anxiety.

 

[Maid22]

@Maid22 I missed this somehow and only just saw it. Just wanted to say I wasn’t ignoring you!
I absolutely have those days myself, I haven’t got dressed since Thursday (when I had to)

I wouldn’t ever tell anyone to ‘stop wallowing’ usually, I said it with kindness as AC said I wish I had someone to tell me to stop x

I wasn't having ago at you lovely, I actually haven't got dressed since Thursday either, but I need to get my tit together for tomorrow, am soo angry and upset about something, if you see a mad woman from Cornwall in the news tomorrow, that'll be me!

 

[Pollyanna263]

I wasn't having ago at you lovely, I actually haven't got dressed since Thursday either, but I need to get my tit together for tomorrow, am soo angry and upset about something, if you see a mad woman from Cornwall in the news tomorrow, that'll be me!

Angry and upset isn’t good Hope you manage some rest, if not sleep x

 

[Maid22]

Angry and upset isn’t good Hope you manage some rest, if not sleep x

I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow, yeah I'm ticking at the mo, I just really hate being tit on and folks get away with it!
How's your doggy xx

 

[Pollyanna263]

I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow, yeah I'm ticking at the mo, I just really hate being tit on and folks get away with it!
How's your doggy xx

She’s doing well, thank you for asking!
Post-op check tomorrow, and then hopefully stitches out Thursday. Not sure when we’ll get biopsy results but I’m trying not to worry (ha ha)

Right now she wants to go to bed

 

[Maid22]

She’s doing well, thank you for asking!
Post-op check tomorrow, and then hopefully stitches out Thursday. Not sure when we’ll get biopsy results but I’m trying not to worry (ha ha)

Right now she wants to go to bed

Omg, she's gorgeous, is she a spaniel? I had to really look cos she looks like a collie with her colouring , fingers and toes crossed her results will come back clear x I'm in bed with my handsome boy next to me, that's my dog not my oh

 

[Pollyanna263]

Omg, she's gorgeous, is she a spaniel? I had to really look cos she looks like a collie with her colouring , fingers and toes crossed her results will come back clear x I'm in bed with my handsome boy next to me, that's my dog not my oh

Yes she’s a springer. She’s a real beauty, and the most wonderful temperament. She came into my life at the perfect time and I will be forever thankful for her.

That made me laugh! Dog forever here now, no man again

 

[Maid22]

Yes she’s a springer. She’s a real beauty, and the most wonderful temperament. She came into my life at the perfect time and I will be forever thankful for her.

That made me laugh! Dog forever here now, no man again

Gorgeous girl x

 

[Fanny Muchmore]

Yes she’s a springer. She’s a real beauty, and the most wonderful temperament. She came into my life at the perfect time and I will be forever thankful for her.

That made me laugh! Dog forever here now, no man again

Awwww, your doggy is gorgeous

 

[Pollyanna263]

Been for the dog’s post-op check. Vet has had the lab results - no tumour!!

Such a relief.

 

[Quarrantinemadness]

Just need a rant sorry
I’m feel so low, I hate my job and the type of work I do, I find it so stressful and I dread every day.
My problem is I’m on my own with a mortgage so I can’t afford to leave and get any job, I’d need at least the salary I’m already on.
I feel so stuck. If it wasn’t for my cats I don’t think I’d be here. I don’t see any way out. I feel so lost.
Thanks for listening xx

 

[BettyCrockerr]

Just need a rant sorry
I’m feel so low, I hate my job and the type of work I do, I find it so stressful and I dread every day.
My problem is I’m on my own with a mortgage so I can’t afford to leave and get any job, I’d need at least the salary I’m already on.
I feel so stuck. If it wasn’t for my cats I don’t think I’d be here. I don’t see any way out. I feel so lost.
Thanks for listening xx

Could you put your place up for sale, get out of the mortgage, use the money to take a break from work and rethink what you want to do next??

 

[Quarrantinemadness]

Could you put your place up for sale, get out of the mortgage, use the money to take a break from work and rethink what you want to do next??

I’d have nowhere to go and couldn’t afford to rent where I live I’m just totally stuck. I wish I could afford to just get a job in boots, or on a reception etc where there would be much less stress and I didn’t have to think about how much work I’ve got to do day and night x

 

[BettyCrockerr]

I’d have nowhere to go and couldn’t afford to rent where I live I’m just totally stuck. I wish I could afford to just get a job in boots, or on a reception etc where there would be much less stress and I didn’t have to think about how much work I’ve got to do day and night x

Move somewhere new, somewhere cheaper to live so you can take a pay cut and give yourself a breather? The property market is insane for those selling at the moment - you’ll probably make a good bit of money on your place. You definitely have options here

 

[Agent Cooper]

Been for the dog’s post-op check. Vet has had the lab results - no tumour!!

Such a relief.

So happy to hear that! Your dog is gorgeous

Just need a rant sorry
I’m feel so low, I hate my job and the type of work I do, I find it so stressful and I dread every day.
My problem is I’m on my own with a mortgage so I can’t afford to leave and get any job, I’d need at least the salary I’m already on.
I feel so stuck. If it wasn’t for my cats I don’t think I’d be here. I don’t see any way out. I feel so lost.
Thanks for listening xx

I’m so sorry to hear you are feeling low and stuck Is your job a desk one? Could you possibly work from home to reduce the stress levels?

 

[Quarrantinemadness]

Move somewhere new, somewhere cheaper to live so you can take a pay cut and give yourself a breather? The property market is insane for those selling at the moment - you’ll probably make a good bit of money on your place. You definitely have options here

That’s true. Just scary isn’t it. I was married and I find having to do everything on my own a lot to deal with amongst other things. Think it’s an overwhelming fear of the unknown xx

So happy to hear that! Your dog is gorgeous

I’m so sorry to hear you are feeling low and stuck Is your job a desk one? Could you possibly work from home to reduce the stress levels?

Hi yes it is and I do at the moment, but work want me to go back in a few days per week. Currently waiting on an OH assessment as I recently got diagnosed with a disability too which isn’t helping matters xx