Hey everyone, hope you’re all ok
I just want to wish everyone well and loads of luck with the rest of your pregnancies and upcoming births
but I need to take a step back.
My baby girl continues to battle hard and is in the safest hands possible receiving the best care and I’m so grateful and full of love however I’m really struggling.
I’m struggling getting my head around the abrupt way she was brought into the world at 31 weeks. I’m struggling to accept that I’m no longer pregnant, I’m struggling to leave my baby behind at the hospital and lie at home without her with, I feel like a mummy without her baby. I struggle to see her so vulnerable and not know what’s going to happen day by day, hear her little cries and not be able to explain to her what’s happening. As I try and recover myself physically and mentally and try and be a level headed parent i just feel like I’ve been sucked into someone else’s nightmare. But at the same time tell myself that every day she’s here is a good day.
anyway I’m rambling. Thank you all for the support on this thread I have received since I joined after reading those words pregnant on the pregnancy test. This really is the best community and you feel very much invested and apart of everyone’s stories and pregnancy journey. Sending love and luck to you all. Your babies are already blessed to have you as their mummies.
and please please if you do see you have excessive swelling to your feet, ankles, hands and face and feel unwell don’t dismiss it for usual pregnancy symptoms. Please get it checked out ASAP. It’s only that I happened to have my 30 week midwife appointment that same day that they prevented me from the next step of serious pre eclampsia and what probably would have gone on to be failure of my kidneys and blood clots.