Paul from Perth

[TryingMyBest]

It’s a weird one for me because I used to like Paul but when he started discussing Jenny apple and was actively trying to gain more followers, I saw a side to him that I’m not keen on. And at the same time I have empathy for him. The surgery and problems he went through are quite something. If I had the same diagnosis I know that I wouldn’t put myself through such a surgery,
I don’t believe Paul will ever be cancer free, I think surgery’s extended his life. What if he remains depressed and suicidal? Is that quality of life? Anyone that opens a YouTube channel and makes public their health is open to the publics opinions. The majority of comments left on his videos are words of support and encouragement. Of course there will be a small amount of negative comments, but Vloggers should expect that.
How many of go to the cinema then discuss the film? Some will rave about the film and others will think it was absolute garbage.
If Paul isn’t emotionally strong enough to deal with those negative comments then maybe he needs to really think about vlogging.
Something that confuses me is the way he sways and becomes very blunt about things.
A while ago he was looking to see if any of his subscribers could offer him accommodation. He gave out his email address and bluntly told his subscribers not to email him if they couldn’t help him. He had no interest in meeting up with any of his subscribers. Later he changed his mind and asked if anyone wanted to meet up. Paul then asks for financial donations? Just a few months ago nobody knew this man and he didn’t know any of his subscribers. He had zero interest in making friends, zero interest in anyone offering advice, but then suddenly is very open to accepting cash? All these cancer bloggers usually end up asking for cash. They are already getting paid for views but that’s never enough.. the majority end up asking for cash. Cash for treatment, cash to pay their funeral, cash to support their children, cash for living expenses. Cash, cash and cash.

I made the mistake of reading his stories on his substack (I think). They sounded like BS. I would have sworn he was a gay escort but he said he was an escort for women even though his stories sounded like he either was the worst escort in the world or didn't understand women enough to make up legit stories.

I think he's just a sad boring dude that wants to be a more exciting and interesting person than his reality. The cancer journey has pushed him over the edge. I didn't read any of the comments on the two videos he pulled but it would make sense that some people questioned why he needed money after saying from the very beginning that he was in good financial shape unlike others.

 

[PuzzlesAndWine]

I forget what his last 2 videos that he's removed were about, 1 had to be the asking for donations but what was the other and what were the comments or reasoning for removing them, anyone know?
And sadly, the first thing I thought watching this new video was 'oh you got the money you asked for and you bail' I don't want to think that way but that's how it kind of feels. Did he thank anyone for donating or was that the last video and then this one?

 

[TryingMyBest]

I forget what his last 2 videos that he's removed were about, 1 had to be the asking for donations but what was the other and what were the comments or reasoning for removing them, anyone know?
And sadly, the first thing I thought watching this new video was 'oh you got the money you asked for and you bail' I don't want to think that way but that's how it kind of feels. Did he thank anyone for donating or was that the last video and then this one?

I didn't watch either of the ones he pulled but I know the 1st one was the asking for money and the second one was half about the money and the rest about someone named Francine. He said he couldn't edit out the 1st half so he took the video down.
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I checked his last video. 12k views, 1.7k likes and only 34 comments. He's obviously deleting comments.
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[PuzzlesAndWine]

I didn't watch either of the ones he pulled but I know the 1st one was the asking for money and the second one was half about the money and the rest about someone named Francine. He said he couldn't edit out the 1st half so he took the video down.

Thanks. I guess I didn't see the francine one, don't remember that. Wonder if comments were about him asking for money?

 

[TryingMyBest]

Thanks. I guess I didn't see the francine one, don't remember that. Wonder if comments were about him asking for money?

I didn't watch the Francine one either. I recall the title was about sharing the love or something. I was very surprised about him asking for money. I'm sure others were also.

 

[dreamteam1]

I hope Paul is ok, I saw some trolls ok another video saying RIP but it’s very clear he’s taken a break to me.

 

[TryingMyBest]

he just posted a new video

 

[PuzzlesAndWine]

Sad he has to wait 2 to 4 weeks just to have the scans since he said those numbers jumped so fast. Even if the outcome doesn't change it sucks to have to play the waiting game in your head

 

[TryingMyBest]

Sad he has to wait 2 to 4 weeks just to have the scans since he said those numbers jumped so fast. Even if the outcome doesn't change it sucks to have to play the waiting game in your head

It does seem like they should expedite that PET scan. Poor guy. He goes from I need more money because I'm going to live longer to I'm going to do euthanasia all in a couple weeks.

 

[riley123]

That was very hard to watch. I know he wants to continue recording but I wonder if he'll emotionally be able to.

 

[AhoraM]

How horrible, poor man. Well, I've always said that I'd never choose to have that kind of surgery with that kind of cancer.. plus he's single, no kids, if there's someone who could have said, you know what, f*ck it, let me get rid of all my sh*t and go on a trip around the world until I fu*king die, that's him. His post-op was torture to the point that he wanted to unalive himself, his life now sucks, and he's finally beginning to understand that it's quality over quantity and of course as impossibly hard as the whole coming to terms thing is, I agree with his decision not to get a life prolonging treatment at this point.

 

[LeonorG]

That's so sad. The surgery was for nothing then. He has endured so much suffering due to it and it might not even extend his life considerably.

I agree, @AhoraM. I would never opt to have the MOAS surgery. In fact, if I had cancer in the peritoneum, I would not even do treatment. There is no point. I would spend some time doing what I love (if possible) and then seek to have euthanasia.

 

[TryingMyBest]

That's so sad. The surgery was for nothing then. He has endured so much suffering due to it and it might not even extend his life considerably.

I agree, @AhoraM. I would never opt to have the MOAS surgery. In fact, if I had cancer in the peritoneum, I would not even do treatment. There is no point. I would spend some time doing what I love (if possible) and then seek to have euthanasia.

Same here. That surgery not only did not significantly prolong his life it really did a number on his head. He was fragile to begin with but that pushed him over the edge.

 

[girlwhowrites]

Damn, I really thought Paul was going to be one of the ones who’d end up with a positive ending. I was so excited for him when Caroline said that the cancer was basically all gone and that the tiny bit left would be easily killed by treatment.

I just don’t get how this happened. If he only had a tiny bit of cancer in his body after the surgery, was it that remaining bit that went crazy and grew out of control? How’d that happen when he was undergoing treatment that would supposedly get rid of that remaining tumor easily?
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That was very hard to watch. I know he wants to continue recording but I wonder if he'll emotionally be able to.

If I were him, I think I’d choose to be less active on YouTube with news like this. He’s mentioned that he spends a lot of time reading and responding to comments. I would rather spend my remaining time doing other things. But maybe he feels like talking to other people is the best way to spend his time?