She epitomises this hierarchical world we live in. That even those who are suffering with cancer, and are less fortunate will now have to watch someone else in the “same” position, but with a better quality of living, rub their noses in it all day long. Not only that, they will have to spend their final days wondering why they can’t be so “positive” too.
I feel bad for her situation, I really do. It must be fucking awful knowing what’s happening in your body and that you are effectively dying. I can’t even pretend to know how that feels. But, I feel like her behaviour is really toxic. Along with many other cancer influencers who prance about all day, and enjoy profiting from those who feel bad for them.
At first I was guilty for even feeling this way. I may have even had a word with a universe, hoping that I won’t be struck down dead for thinking this way. Yes if I had a terminal illness I’d want lots of people to love on me and give me attention, I would. Who wouldn’t? But, to what degree does it become excessive? There is something about this whole thing that just doesn’t sit right with me.
I’m a very grateful sort of person, and I like to share what I have with those who are less fortunate. If I had 22K donated to me, I’d like to purchase a holiday or two for those who are in my EXACT situation who don’t want to build a following and perform all day on social media. I think she should share, why does she have to have it all? I’m sure Monique would like a nice surprise or two? And a few others I can think of too.
I just don’t get it, because thinking about people other than myself comes easy to me. If she didn’t want to share her funds, she could set up something called the “unknown warriors” and ask her following to raise funds for those who are suffering from cancer but don’t want to be on social media all day.
I don’t find her to be particularly interesting either, and she isn’t genuine in the slightest. She says things like “yay, I’ve never been more happier to be having chemo” Well it isn’t fucking yay is it? Why glamorise something that is brutal and frightening?
I’d much rather see the harsh reality of cancer, not pleasant to hear but at least it would be real. It’s like even with something as terrible as this, we have to put one big positive spin on it for the likes.
It’s toxic AF.