I used to like her very much in pre surgery/surgery times, I was in awe of her strenght and determination to fight this disease but something went very wrong with her mental health. I don't think that becoming cancer influencer did her any good, she either talks about what she has lost with her disease or she talks about her dead friends, there's no positivity whatsoever. It's really draining to read for the 488399274 time what she has had removed to be alive and how she can't have children. It's not inspiring, it's giving very sad vibes. I don't get why she won't volunteer or get a part time job, she won't be a dancer or school teacher but she can still have a fulfilling life. She dreamt about being a nurse when she was pre op, I don't think it's a good idea given her state health wise but she used to have some dreams and plans. Now she's just a sad shell of a person she used to be and it's not all due to cancer. I pity her, I also wonder is there any love between Chris and her or are they with each other because she's sick and he's too decent to leave. I hope that she will wake up one day, hoping it will be sooner than later cause she's stage IV after all and it would be a shame to waste this precious time on regret and saddness. If she liked Nicky so much maybe go grab life Nat and be a little more positive, cause your friend certainly was.