Dolly Daydreaming
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Okay mmbop, I've channelled you whilst writing my update, so here goes 
. Also, sorry in advance if there's spelling/grammar mistakes, I just wanted to get it all out whilst I remember.
I feel completely drained after today, it’s been an intense day. I was there with our friend who travelled down from Scotland, and we ended up sitting next to a lovely person who used to work with TC, AK, and IH. They had so much to say about the executives, and honestly, none of it was flattering. There were plenty of NHS and healthcare professionals present as well, including some who had worked at COCH during the events in question.
We were sitting quite close to TC, so I had a clear view of him throughout. While we waited for Lady Thirlwall to arrive, I watched him reading through his documents, and it was obvious how nervous he was. His hands were shaking, and the papers trembled in his grip (NGL I reveled in seeing this). During his testimony, the nerves were even more evident: he was sweating profusely and drinking water constantly. Whether it was anxiety or the weight of maintaining his version of events/lies/guilt, it was hard to say.
In some ways, his demeanour reminded me of Dominic West in The Crown, the same way of carrying himself, with an almost performative quality. Early on, KC Poer asked him three separate times whether he would accept personal failure. Each time, instead of answering, he launched into long-winded speeches, full of deflection and generalisations. This was barely 15 minutes into his testimony, and already, he was avoiding responsibility. Most of his responses relied heavily on collective terms like “we,” “the trust,” and “our team,” while he rarely used “I.” It reminded me of Letby’s language, carefully avoiding anything that could pin accountability directly on him. He kept insisting that his actions were correct at the time.
When questioned about why he hadn’t taken the doctors’ concerns seriously, he dismissed it by saying something like, “I can’t just go with a gut feeling.” Later, when safeguarding was brought up, he shifted the blame entirely, asking, “Why didn’t they go to the police?” It was exhausting to listen to, his tone was so obtuse and defensive. He often interrupted the KC Poer with loud, forceful interjections like “AND…” as if trying to dominate the exchange. BNE 2, to his credit, kept control, but clearly looked exasperated by the end. Lady Thirlwall didn’t miss a beat either, stepping in to tell TC off at one point: “Just answer the question" with a stern tone.
At one point, when the bullying allegations came up, I noticed TC clenching his hand into a fist, clearly controlling his anger. It made me think back to Saladi’s evidence, where TC reportedly banged his fist on the table and told consultants they needed to “draw a line under this” (or something to that effect). His anger seemed barely restrained, but it was there, simmering under the surface.
What shocked me the most, though, was his attitude when he started boasting about his successes; completely unprompted and out of context. His face showed unmistakable signs of contempt, and he looked almost proud. It was so inappropriate for the situation, and I felt absolutely disgusted. This was neither the time nor the place for self congratulation
There was a moment where they discussed his commitment (I think, I didn't take notes so i'm just going from memory), and while his words projected confidence, his body language told a different story. He looked uneasy, as though he didn’t fully believe what he was saying. Ie - for example and words to this effect "Yes, I believe we were all commited to patient safety" but he kept shaking his head, as to say no (incongruence). Like Letby and others, he seemed to have a highly selective memory, conveniently forgetting key details, claiming he hadn’t read reports, or insisting no one had told him. It was an exhausting pattern: deflect, deny, avoid. Rinse and repeat from 10am till just after 6pm.
What struck me most about today was the atmosphere in the courtroom. People who had worked at COCH during that time, or who were familiar with the events, exchanged glances and quietly shook their heads, lots of sighs, etc at some of his responses. You could feel the frustration and disbelief in the air. It wasn’t just his answers, it was the way he carried himself, the interruptions, the deflections, and that misplaced sense of pride. I can't speak for everyone, but the ones I did, it left a bitter taste for us, and a lot of fkn anger.
It’s hard to ignore his over-reliance on “we” and “the trust” rather than “I” highlights how accountability was so often diluted. Decisions were made "collectively", and blame was shared, or avoided altogether. It’s a pattern we’ve seen repeatedly in this inquiry (and LL), and it’s both infuriating and heartbreaking.
By the end of the day, he seemed like a man clinging to his reputation, unwilling or unable to take responsibility for the harm caused under his leadership. It was angering, exhausting and utterly disgusting, and more to come from this scumbag tomorrow! I’ll need to read the transcript to fully process it all but here's what I can remember at the moment x
Ps well done if you've reached this far
. Also, sorry in advance if there's spelling/grammar mistakes, I just wanted to get it all out whilst I remember.I feel completely drained after today, it’s been an intense day. I was there with our friend who travelled down from Scotland, and we ended up sitting next to a lovely person who used to work with TC, AK, and IH. They had so much to say about the executives, and honestly, none of it was flattering. There were plenty of NHS and healthcare professionals present as well, including some who had worked at COCH during the events in question.
We were sitting quite close to TC, so I had a clear view of him throughout. While we waited for Lady Thirlwall to arrive, I watched him reading through his documents, and it was obvious how nervous he was. His hands were shaking, and the papers trembled in his grip (NGL I reveled in seeing this
). During his testimony, the nerves were even more evident: he was sweating profusely and drinking water constantly. Whether it was anxiety or the weight of maintaining his version of events/lies/guilt, it was hard to say.In some ways, his demeanour reminded me of Dominic West in The Crown, the same way of carrying himself, with an almost performative quality. Early on, KC Poer asked him three separate times whether he would accept personal failure. Each time, instead of answering, he launched into long-winded speeches, full of deflection and generalisations. This was barely 15 minutes into his testimony, and already, he was avoiding responsibility. Most of his responses relied heavily on collective terms like “we,” “the trust,” and “our team,” while he rarely used “I.” It reminded me of Letby’s language, carefully avoiding anything that could pin accountability directly on him. He kept insisting that his actions were correct at the time.
When questioned about why he hadn’t taken the doctors’ concerns seriously, he dismissed it by saying something like, “I can’t just go with a gut feeling.” Later, when safeguarding was brought up, he shifted the blame entirely, asking, “Why didn’t they go to the police?” It was exhausting to listen to, his tone was so obtuse and defensive. He often interrupted the KC Poer with loud, forceful interjections like “AND…” as if trying to dominate the exchange. BNE 2, to his credit, kept control, but clearly looked exasperated by the end. Lady Thirlwall didn’t miss a beat either, stepping in to tell TC off at one point: “Just answer the question" with a stern tone.
At one point, when the bullying allegations came up, I noticed TC clenching his hand into a fist, clearly controlling his anger. It made me think back to Saladi’s evidence, where TC reportedly banged his fist on the table and told consultants they needed to “draw a line under this” (or something to that effect). His anger seemed barely restrained, but it was there, simmering under the surface.
What shocked me the most, though, was his attitude when he started boasting about his successes; completely unprompted and out of context. His face showed unmistakable signs of contempt, and he looked almost proud. It was so inappropriate for the situation, and I felt absolutely disgusted. This was neither the time nor the place for self congratulation
There was a moment where they discussed his commitment (I think, I didn't take notes so i'm just going from memory), and while his words projected confidence, his body language told a different story. He looked uneasy, as though he didn’t fully believe what he was saying. Ie - for example and words to this effect "Yes, I believe we were all commited to patient safety" but he kept shaking his head, as to say no (incongruence). Like Letby and others, he seemed to have a highly selective memory, conveniently forgetting key details, claiming he hadn’t read reports, or insisting no one had told him. It was an exhausting pattern: deflect, deny, avoid. Rinse and repeat from 10am till just after 6pm.
What struck me most about today was the atmosphere in the courtroom. People who had worked at COCH during that time, or who were familiar with the events, exchanged glances and quietly shook their heads, lots of sighs, etc at some of his responses. You could feel the frustration and disbelief in the air. It wasn’t just his answers, it was the way he carried himself, the interruptions, the deflections, and that misplaced sense of pride. I can't speak for everyone, but the ones I did, it left a bitter taste for us, and a lot of fkn anger.
It’s hard to ignore his over-reliance on “we” and “the trust” rather than “I” highlights how accountability was so often diluted. Decisions were made "collectively", and blame was shared, or avoided altogether. It’s a pattern we’ve seen repeatedly in this inquiry (and LL), and it’s both infuriating and heartbreaking.
By the end of the day, he seemed like a man clinging to his reputation, unwilling or unable to take responsibility for the harm caused under his leadership. It was angering, exhausting and utterly disgusting, and more to come from this scumbag tomorrow! I’ll need to read the transcript to fully process it all but here's what I can remember at the moment x
Ps well done if you've reached this far
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hahahaha, it really amazes me how many people who know absolutely nothing about the case will happily disrespect murdered babies and their families online. Like you’re defending a baby murderer, wtf is wrong with you?
wasn’t expecting that. 
the big fanny 
