First time writer, not here for arguments tho
I'm a paeds nurse, 11 years on a paeds ICU, also had an 800g baby in neonatal intensive care for 3 months.
I have never known a nurse use a guedel airway, always drs.
I am still sort of in the not guilty camp, I think maybe it's because
1) I truly don't want to believe that she / LL from what we see in her pics and what we've heard from neighbours and friends, could do this.
2) The NHS is brilliant, but also a fuck up; no staff, nasty staff, bullying, lack of managerial support etc to name a few. So not that it's a "scapegoat" situation but more of a blame / point the finger situation.
3) I don't think the prosecution has been all that compelling, likewise defense isn't great either and I think we're all waiting for some big reveal from either side, but I don't really think we'll get it.
4) Neonatal units are fantastic from one point of view but weird/unpleasant from another. Snotty staff, staff 'down playing' incidents / situations.
5) Brady's do happens a lot, so do low saturations, and the nurses were REALLY SLOW to jump on these, to the point I said "if I let baby's get this low on ICU, I'd be sacked" which I would. Everything that goes wrong with prems is put down to "well there prem, this is what they do" I don't think this is just the unit I was on either.
Neonatal "journeys" are renowned for being referred to as merry go round / up n downs constantly. One min your babies doing great, 20 mins later they e got a rip roaring infection, they recover, a day later their being ventilated, it's really a weird rude and KNOWN for this
Insulin- don't know / can't remember the full info around the 2 attacks, but if put into TPN then can see why didn't work/kill (sorry, for want of better scenario). If put directly in line and baby WAS DUE/ REQUIRING insulin, it could have been a 10 times error - again, a fuck up, 2 nurses check doses, but these errors DO happen in kids, although in prem's nearly all meds given are so tiny - usually 0.1-0.5ml syringes of any drug, so if u find yourself drawing up a syringe of 1ml or more you KNOW it's wrong...
If the baby didn't st all require insulin but did end up having bloods/toxicology that PROVED there was insulin then yep, high chance of attempted murder or again, a massive fuck up and 2 nurses signed for and gave the wrong drug.... Again, not an impossibility....
I think I always like to see the good in people and also I hate the fact that no one ever really knows if someone's guilty or what really happened unless someone admits it or its on video etc.
So I am on fence / NG, but prob more because I just can't see how, why she or anyone would do this and potentially for 1 year out if the blue, or particularly good enough evidence yet that isn't circumstantial.
Hope all this makes sense and doesn't get any nasty replies
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