I’m so alone

[Makaraka]

I’m so alone
I feel like I have nobody to talk to
My husband has gone away until February time when he goes it’s like a light has gone off inside me.
I have two beautiful little girls who I adore and they keep me busy but come bedtime I just cry and cry.

I have a good few friends who try keep me busy but lockdown is just killing me inside

I can’t go on anymore

 

[heretoreaditall2019]

I’m so alone
I feel like I have nobody to talk to
My husband has gone away until February time when he goes it’s like a light has gone off inside me.
I have two beautiful little girls who I adore and they keep me busy but come bedtime I just cry and cry.

I have a good few friends who try keep me busy but lockdown is just killing me inside

I can’t go on anymore

my love the last sentence is very worrying, please call the Samaritans on 116 123 & check out resources here:

uk suicide resources - Google Search

 

[calmyourritas]

I’m so alone
I feel like I have nobody to talk to
My husband has gone away until February time when he goes it’s like a light has gone off inside me.
I have two beautiful little girls who I adore and they keep me busy but come bedtime I just cry and cry.

I have a good few friends who try keep me busy but lockdown is just killing me inside

I can’t go on anymore

I am sending so much love to you, your message has broke my heart. I am here to chat but please think of your little girls and get some professional help

 

[Chardonnay]

I’m so alone
I feel like I have nobody to talk to
My husband has gone away until February time when he goes it’s like a light has gone off inside me.
I have two beautiful little girls who I adore and they keep me busy but come bedtime I just cry and cry.

I have a good few friends who try keep me busy but lockdown is just killing me inside

I can’t go on anymore

You can go on. You have to because those 2 little girls need their mummy, their whole world. Please reach out to someone and be honest with how you’re feeling, anyone. I promise you no one will turn you away. I’m so sorry you’re feeling low. It’s really tit times. But it’s just a moment in time. There will be brighter, better days ahead. I wish you all the very best.

 

[McNuggets]

My darling I am so very sorry to hear you are feeling like this.

Please can you keep talking to us?

 

[Makaraka]

my love the last sentence is very worrying, please call the Samaritans on 116 123 & check out resources here:

uk suicide resources - Google Search

I was in a bad place last year
I’ve had and have lots of help but lockdown is destroying my hard work on myself

I’ve seen my husband for 3 months now since January
I’m tired, lonely, stressed. I’m scared I’m going to relapse again

 

[calmyourritas]

Where is your husband? Is he available for you to talk to?

 

[PootleFlump]

You can go on, you have love and strength around you. These people in your phone are here. And we will help.
Please talk to us.
You have friends here and even if it doesn’t seem possible, you have love and support. You have reached out to us so please use us and let us help you sweetheart xx

 

[If i told you …]

I’m so alone
I feel like I have nobody to talk to
My husband has gone away until February time when he goes it’s like a light has gone off inside me.
I have two beautiful little girls who I adore and they keep me busy but come bedtime I just cry and cry.

I have a good few friends who try keep me busy but lockdown is just killing me inside

I can’t go on anymore

So sorry that you are feeling like this. Stay strong and remember the future is waiting for you sweet girl

 

[Em150]

You are never alone please reach out if you need to. Your beautiful children need their Mummy

 

[PurplePop20]

You are so brave for even writing how you feel. That is the hardest part. Would you consider phoning your GP tomorrow or looking at how to self-refer for talking therapies.
Also with your husband being away can you form a support bubble with someone? Even if they could watch the children for a short while itll give you a moment for self care.

 

[McNuggets]

Sometimes if I have had a particularly hard day at work and my husband is snoring like a plane going by I get into bed with one of my kiddies and it helps me fall asleep.

Can you do that? Without waking them of course, because then you will have another problem..

Thinking of you

 

[Makaraka]

Where is your husband? Is he available for you to talk to?

He’s in the Middle East. He’s in quarantine at the moment so we can kind of speak
But once he’s moved from quarantine it’s difficult.

it’s very a complicated situation.
He didn’t want to leave us and I begged him to stay but duty calls.

I just feel so sad and alone
My dad has PSTD so can’t speak to me about what I’m going through even though he would understand and my mum who is my childminder/support bubble seems to think that I’m dramatic even though she would understand how I feel if she just listened and didn’t dote on the grandkids!

I seem to be in a lone situation amongst my friends who think I’m being dramatic.
but it’s so hard to explain how alone and afraid I feel to anyone

sorry for rambling

 

[or JusRollWithIt]

Thanks to @heretoreaditall2019 above who shared those very important numbers.

It’s not an easy thing you are doing and completely understandable to feel alone. Husband away for a long time and you trying to hold the fort with your little ones in the middle of this crazy time when everything is just so strange. Kids are a blessing in that they keep us busy and distracted. But when it goes quiet and we are left alone, those are the hardest hours. I am sure you will get a lot of love and people here who care. Be gentle on yourself

 

[Onepotatotwopotato]

I’m so alone
I feel like I have nobody to talk to
My husband has gone away until February time when he goes it’s like a light has gone off inside me.
I have two beautiful little girls who I adore and they keep me busy but come bedtime I just cry and cry.

I have a good few friends who try keep me busy but lockdown is just killing me inside

I can’t go on anymore

Forget lockdown rules, invite a friend round as a support bubble, or you could do a pushchair walk, wishing you well

 

[Missh95]

You’re never alone Even if you need to speak to somebody on here. There’s always someone to reach out to. Your little girls need their mummy xx

 

[heretoreaditall2019]

I was in a bad place last year
I’ve had and have lots of help but lockdown is destroying my hard work on myself

I’ve seen my husband for 3 months now since January
I’m tired, lonely, stressed. I’m scared I’m going to relapse again

It’s okay, recovery isn’t a linear journey there will always be ups and downs. This is a temporary down and you will get better, one step at a time. Are you in the rooms by any chance? There are 24/7 meetings, I am happy to help you find a meeting that’s on now?

With regards to lockdown - it’s hard, it’s really hard. Are you going out walking with your girls? Where abouts in the country are you my love, are there any parks nearby or fun outside play areas? xx

 

[McNuggets]

You don’t need to justify yourself to us.

You are not being dramatic. You are entitled to feel how you feel and your thoughts and feelings are real and they are valid.

Would it help you to know that this will pass? Believe me it will. Everything passes.

xxx

 

[heretoreaditall2019]

He’s in the Middle East. He’s in quarantine at the moment so we can kind of speak
But once he’s moved from quarantine it’s difficult.

it’s very a complicated situation.
He didn’t want to leave us and I begged him to stay but duty calls.

I just feel so sad and alone
My dad has PSTD so can’t speak to me about what I’m going through even though he would understand and my mum who is my childminder/support bubble seems to think that I’m dramatic even though she would understand how I feel if she just listened and didn’t dote on the grandkids!

I seem to be in a lone situation amongst my friends who think I’m being dramatic.
but it’s so hard to explain how alone and afraid I feel to anyone

sorry for rambling

don’t apologise it’s fine, all of us are here listening! I’m relieved to hear you’ve got a support bubble nearby, I think because mental health is still a new-ish concept some parents can really struggle to understand it, but that doesn’t mean your feelings and experiences aren’t valid! Have you got a local GP? I’d really recommend ringing them tomorrow as they can help you SO much my love, even in lockdown they’re being amazing, I just finished some CBT through the NHS and it’s been life changing.

I agree wirh other girls here, have you got any friends who are more understanding? I’d honestly double bubble and see them too if you’re struggling, it’s a tit set of circumstances we’re all in but you need a bit more support right now and that’s fine. Please keep chatting to us x

 

[Ginger drink]

I have nothing to add but please believe what other posters have said and speak to someone /anyone. From personal experience, please think of your children who love you very much