I felt devastated reading on Monday morning about Hayden’s death, my heart dropped like a stone and I just felt so so sad.
I’ve been googling her periodically to get answers I suppose
I am 2 years younger than Hayden so I remember as a teen being really jealous of her beauty
I read her autobiography when it came out. It’s really insightful into her narc mother, and also her relationship with Wlad, he was quite emotionally unavailable and she was a deep sensitive soul, quite the mismatch. She didn’t get much help from him with her postpartum, they actually spent their whole relationship with him living in Germany and her in the US, and he was always glued to his phone doing business.
I could really relate to her because my own mother is a narcissist (and trust me I don’t just throw that round easily, it’s amazing I survived my childhood). I used to use alcohol to numb everything but I’m 8 years sober now. I wish life had been kinder to Hayden, she was a very kind human.