When I see those pictures of Gabby, I think how far she’s come and I think she should be proud of her body now.. but I didn’t think she looked awful as a bigger girl either. I think she has a lovely smile when she’s happy and gorgeous skin (well she did before she intentionally gets sunburnt). So what if you’re not a size 8 Gabby, Embrace your curves. But I also know that those kinds of comments can be kind of the issue. I was never a big kid because I did a lot of exercise but also had food issues as a child, I would sneak food and eat it in secret, would eat a whole block of chocolate for dinner, etc. don’t know why, I wasn’t raised like that and my brother and sister didn’t have those issues. My dad suddenly passed away when I was 17 and I dropped out of all my sports, had to drop out of year 12 before I failed, stopped going out and seeing friends and went from a size 12 to a 26 in just over a year. That is the time of your life where you should be finishing school, going off to uni, having your first relationships etc but I skipped all of that. I hated my body and how big I was and eventually all my friends moved on from me as I refused to go out and socialize because I was so uncomfortable and disgusted with who I was . I was incredibly sad and lonely. It wasn’t until I was in my 20s that I decided I don’t want to live that way anymore, got myself a job and lost a LOT of weight. I never even went on a proper first date til I was 25 and although it sucked, I was so proud of myself for finally pushing myself to get out and do it. It’s fucking hard, emotionally and physically, even after losing a tonne of weight.. I don’t have the luxuriously of affording arm lifts and tummy tucks so now I just accept this is me, and I’m happier than I’ve ever been. I run into people that say things that are well meaning like “omg you lost soooo much weight, you look fantastic!” Or “gosh you were really were big, weren’t you?” When you’re bigger you don’t feel like they’re compliments, it just really reiterates what you feel about YOURSELF, wow, I really was disgusting and fat.. wow, I know I was fat but it’s still me on the inside.. stop focusing on my weight, I’ve already spent years focusing on it myself” and that is exactly why she needs a therapist!!! I know people don’t understand and it doesn’t bother me anymore. I can imagine these are exactly the feelings that Gabby goes through in her mind, but mixed in with the childhood bullying which I never experienced. I know Gabby thinks we are all out to get her but the thing that’s so frustrating is she just completely refuses to take any responsibility for her own unhappiness and is a quitter. Okay so you had one shitty therapy session.. so fucking what? Try another one. Therapists aren’t there to tell you “oh you poor thing, what a victim you are!” They’re there to help you discover things about yourself and help you find solutions to move forward with your life in a healthy way. And don’t take your fucking mother with you!!!!!
