For anybody struggling ❤️ #2

[boomska]

I’m feeling a bit down today. Majority of it is just everyday feel like tit to everyone.
but I stupidly went back to my FWB after telling him I want more last year/started to get feelings & we said we would stop…but we can’t stay away from each other.

i feel so pathetic that im basically repeating the same habits I’ve done for years & I say to him we can’t, stick to it for a couple of times & then next thing you know, we’re doing the adult tango dance.

 

[Dogtanian]

I’ve been fairly quiet for the last 12-18 months on here. It certainly feels that way anyway.

I’d been trying to control my MH over the last year or so but it’d been deteriorating recently and it came to a head just around Christmas time.

I won’t go into the details (could be triggering), but the upshot is that I saw the doctor at the end of December and then had a call with private healthcare at the start of January.

We talked about safety, emergency plans, previous attempts and triggers, support at home, space to relax and declutter my head, those sorts of things.

I’m on the highest dosage of antidepressant and I’ve taken the step to sign up to a talking therapy course. I’ve downloaded and purchased an app for support, I also journal using the inbuilt app on the iPhone.

I don’t drink anymore, I hardly drank for the last 3 years anyway (single glass of wine every 2 weeks with my wife) but I’m cutting that out entirely.

I’m hoping to get better soon, I don’t know when but I have to get over this and I’m hoping the online courses will help me fight back.

I’m not sure why I’ve just written all of this, I guess it’s to vent my problems and just give a voice to my issues.

Sending love to anyone struggling.
M.

 

[nothanks91]

I’ve been fairly quiet for the last 12-18 months on here. It certainly feels that way anyway.

I’d been trying to control my MH over the last year or so but it’d been deteriorating recently and it came to a head just around Christmas time.

I won’t go into the details (could be triggering), but the upshot is that I saw the doctor at the end of December and then had a call with private healthcare at the start of January.

We talked about safety, emergency plans, previous attempts and triggers, support at home, space to relax and declutter my head, those sorts of things.

I’m on the highest dosage of antidepressant and I’ve taken the step to sign up to a talking therapy course. I’ve downloaded and purchased an app for support, I also journal using the inbuilt app on the iPhone.

I don’t drink anymore, I hardly drank for the last 3 years anyway (single glass of wine every 2 weeks with my wife) but I’m cutting that out entirely.

I’m hoping to get better soon, I don’t know when but I have to get over this and I’m hoping the online courses will help me fight back.

I’m not sure why I’ve just written all of this, I guess it’s to vent my problems and just give a voice to my issues.

Sending love to anyone struggling.
M.

Thank you for sharing, nothing is permanent. Good times and bad times. You will get through this

 

[charlied0106]

I love this, this is so special its coming up to 1 year without my mum and I'd love to feel a visit from her. Keep that wonderful feeling, and everytime you call your baby its name its like your mum is there 🩷🩷

Quoting myself because I'm not really sure where else to post this. Tbh I'm not even convinced it's a 'sign' but it is pretty weird.

It's the first anniversary of my mum's passing this month, and I'm really struggling with a thing. I asked out loud to my mum if I was it doing the right thing, because half of me thinks she would encourage me to do it and fight it till the end, and the other half of me thinks she would say it's fine, just leave it because it's making me really ill.

So, on Friday morning while WFH I was catching up on Hollyoaks and a song came on over one of the scenes. It was really nice, the little part they used, so I googled the lyrics and found it, and added it to my playlist. It was a song I'd never heard, by an artist I've never heard of.

Anyway, a couple of hours later I started watching Watson. And that same song came on in a scene in the very first episode! So I googled it, why she wrote it etc as it seemed so coincidental.

She wrote it in 2019 (below copied from Google).


According to the singer, it began as an encouraging note to herself and transformed into "a message of hope for anyone in the midst of dark times." It holds significance for Musgraves for several reasons, as it was the last song her grandmother heard her write and was played at her funeral.


I know its pure coincidence but it did give me some comfort. The next 2 weeks leading up to her anniversary are going to be really hard, so im going to just believe.

 

[allthingschocolate]

Feeling really fed up, Sunday is always like impending doom at the thought of returning to work the next day for a full week (I know it is for most), but I’m really physically struggling to be in work due to my long term health condition I’m currently full time and I would love to drop some hours but it would also mean taking a massive pay cut which I really can’t afford to do as a one income household and 1 dependent child also being told by my boss that I have to have a trainee work with me tomorrow is making me feel anxious, for reference I have no objection having them but my physical health has dipped in the last month and emotionally don’t feel I am in the right place to support them , I’ve also gained weight as I’m perimenopausal and trying to stay as active as possible but some days I’m physically exhausted and my low fatigue levels are on another level, I’ve now booked an apt with a nutritional therapist in the hopes she may be able to help me with some of my symptoms and give me some guidance, I tried talking to my family about this yesterday but they don’t seem to get it as they don’t live with my debilitating condition

 

[Maid22]

I'm feeling really down at the moment, we have something going on which could end up making a huge impact on our life, I feel like I'm just existing and not living life. If it wasn't for my hubby and dog, I know I wouldn't be here.

 

[evie1975]

I'm feeling really down at the moment, we have something going on which could end up making a huge impact on our life, I feel like I'm just existing and not living life. If it wasn't for my hubby and dog, I know I wouldn't be here.

This makes me sad to read this. It also makes me proud that you are brave enough to reach out. I know it’s difficult not to think too far ahead but try and concentrate on the things you can control just now - things like self-care, eating and drinking well and connecting with others. It’s okay to have down days; the trick is not to stay there too long. And the better days don’t have to be exceptional- sometimes having a day is enough.

 

[evie1975]

This makes me sad to read this. It also makes me proud that you are brave enough to reach out. I know it’s difficult not to think too far ahead but try and concentrate on the things you can control just now - things like self-care, eating and drinking well and connecting with others. It’s okay to have down days; the trick is not to stay there too long. And the better days don’t have to be exceptional- sometimes having a day is enough.

Oh and Summer House starts this week! @Maid22

 

[nothanks91]

This makes me sad to read this. It also makes me proud that you are brave enough to reach out. I know it’s difficult not to think too far ahead but try and concentrate on the things you can control just now - things like self-care, eating and drinking well and connecting with others. It’s okay to have down days; the trick is not to stay there too long. And the better days don’t have to be exceptional- sometimes having a day is enough.

How lovely to read! I’m also going to take your advice, thank you

 

[Rockin' Robin]

I’ve been fairly quiet for the last 12-18 months on here. It certainly feels that way anyway.

I’d been trying to control my MH over the last year or so but it’d been deteriorating recently and it came to a head just around Christmas time.

I won’t go into the details (could be triggering), but the upshot is that I saw the doctor at the end of December and then had a call with private healthcare at the start of January.

We talked about safety, emergency plans, previous attempts and triggers, support at home, space to relax and declutter my head, those sorts of things.

I’m on the highest dosage of antidepressant and I’ve taken the step to sign up to a talking therapy course. I’ve downloaded and purchased an app for support, I also journal using the inbuilt app on the iPhone.

I don’t drink anymore, I hardly drank for the last 3 years anyway (single glass of wine every 2 weeks with my wife) but I’m cutting that out entirely.

I’m hoping to get better soon, I don’t know when but I have to get over this and I’m hoping the online courses will help me fight back.

I’m not sure why I’ve just written all of this, I guess it’s to vent my problems and just give a voice to my issues.

Sending love to anyone struggling.
M.

Glad you're back again.

 

[Maid22]

This makes me sad to read this. It also makes me proud that you are brave enough to reach out. I know it’s difficult not to think too far ahead but try and concentrate on the things you can control just now - things like self-care, eating and drinking well and connecting with others. It’s okay to have down days; the trick is not to stay there too long. And the better days don’t have to be exceptional- sometimes having a day is enough.

Aww thank you lovely, you don't know how much your post means to me and you really give good advice x
My escapism is reality shows!

 

[Annyct]

Im about as depressed as a person can be. There is not a single person in the world aside from my daughter who cares that im alive. Who’s life would be affected if I wasn’t here. I am so very very sad. I’d never pass my pain onto my daughter by ending it so I’m safe but is this it? Is this as good as life gets?

 

[BugglyWuggly]

Im about as depressed as a person can be. There is not a single person in the world aside from my daughter who cares that im alive. Who’s life would be affected if I wasn’t here. I am so very very sad. I’d never pass my pain onto my daughter by ending it so I’m safe but is this it? Is this as good as life gets?

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. Have you felt like this for long? Is there anything that brings you joy? Pets? Nature? Have you spoken to your GP?

 

[Maid22]

Im about as depressed as a person can be. There is not a single person in the world aside from my daughter who cares that im alive. Who’s life would be affected if I wasn’t here. I am so very very sad. I’d never pass my pain onto my daughter by ending it so I’m safe but is this it? Is this as good as life gets?

Oh am so sorry you feel like this and I can relate unfortunately, I've had awful intrusive dark thoughts over the years, and attempted it twice, but my older brother did, and it really messed my head up, I can't put my hubby through that again, but my future if I haven't got him, I really don't know.
Please seek help, not just for you, but for your daughters sake x

 

[CrazyGiraffeLady]

I know it’s a minor problem compared to some peoples problems but I’m 38 weeks pregnant, my hospital was supposed to book a c section last week, they’ve delayed it saying they want another growth scan this week. My last labour was incredibly fast and ended up a home birth with no pain relief. I have told them again and again I don’t want to risk that again I know the risks of a c section and I’d take that recovery over a very fast labour but no I’m not listened to at all and I feel like they’re waiting for my to go naturally

 

[missaustraliaaddict]

Im about as depressed as a person can be. There is not a single person in the world aside from my daughter who cares that im alive. Who’s life would be affected if I wasn’t here. I am so very very sad. I’d never pass my pain onto my daughter by ending it so I’m safe but is this it? Is this as good as life gets?

Oh I could have written this, i completely understand how you feel

 

[Annyct]

Oh am so sorry you feel like this and I can relate unfortunately, I've had awful intrusive dark thoughts over the years, and attempted it twice, but my older brother did, and it really messed my head up, I can't put my hubby through that again, but my future if I haven't got him, I really don't know.
Please seek help, not just for you, but for your daughters sake x

I’ve been asking for help since I was pregnant, my daughters 7… been under the mh team since July left messages complained etc not heard anything. I keep fighting for her, she has a lot of complex health needs and all my energy goes on getting her the right support and treatment

 

[Maid22]

I’ve been asking for help since I was pregnant, my daughters 7… been under the mh team since July left messages complained etc not heard anything. I keep fighting for her, she has a lot of complex health needs and all my energy goes on getting her the right support and treatment

Am so sorry to hear this, someone will probably answer and advise you better than I can x

 

[evie1975]

I’ve been asking for help since I was pregnant, my daughters 7… been under the mh team since July left messages complained etc not heard anything. I keep fighting for her, she has a lot of complex health needs and all my energy goes on getting her the right support and treatment

It’s hard to give you specific advice as I don’t know where in the world you are. If you are under a mental health team - there may be a local advocacy organisation who can advocate for your daughter on your behalf if it’s impacting your physical and mental health. Local carers organisations may offer support to you as your daughter’s carer. Do you have a health visitor for your daughter- they can get you extra support. If you are not getting support from the mental health team then please speak to your referrer (most likely your GP).
You are showing up for your daughter every day despite how you are feeling, what a fantastic Mum you are.

 

[Rockin' Robin]

I’ve been asking for help since I was pregnant, my daughters 7… been under the mh team since July left messages complained etc not heard anything. I keep fighting for her, she has a lot of complex health needs and all my energy goes on getting her the right support and treatment

I hope you can use Tattle as an outlet to express your feelings, or visit for emotional support.