I have been feeling low for a few days now. I couldn't summon up much enthusiasm. My partner and I put up our tree a few days ago.
It ended up looking lacklustre.
This morning I was trying so hard not to cry in front of my partner, I failed. He asked me what was wrong. I blurted out that I just wanted this day to be over. I felt awful having said that, I might as well have punched him in the stomach.
I realised that the mood I am in, I might say other hurtful things, so I really tried to start functioning.
Things have improved since earlier on, but I have to say this - why should I feel guilty about wanting this day to end? Why do I feel like I have to paint on a smile, and a cheerful demeanor, if I really don't feel that way?
Don't worry, I won't inflict my misery on the outside world, only Tattle!
Incidently thank you to the person who started this thread, it is very much appreciated.