Honestly skip it, it adds no value to the wider thread and it was quickly abandoned. I agree with you completely re weaponising it. She’s a really demonic and dark being, like truly a very scary individual I’m not joking, so it’s okay to feel like you can’t consume 100% of what she puts out there cos it’s an awful lot to deal with if you’re in connection with your emotions? The problem for her is she’s not, she can say all these things and feels nothing so doesn’t realise how horribly triggering and tbh, disturbing it all is. It’s something I’ve noticed in the narcissists in my life too? Like emotions and human life (or cat life) is just so cheap to them anything goes, and you can’t put yourself in that firing line!!
I hope you feel better re pain, though! And you’re having a lovely lunch to distract from it. I went and got a baguette from the bakery, was underwhelming as usual shoulda got a brick lane beigel tbh
I’m going to start Schitt’s creek this week so I can make faux friends with the characters so when I need it as a distraction for my overnight stay it’s a familiar friend!!