I think if you’re even thinking about it, then it is the right thing to do. Remember, we are all here for youJust came back on here to read everyone’s messages of love and support, thank you so much. I have my pre assessment tomorrow morning for the surgery
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It’s been about 20 years since I had a miscarriage but the only thing I had after was a blood test a little while after just to check my HCG levels were dropping in line with what they’d expect. I didn’t get a scan. That was an unwanted pregnancy and was in the process of sorting an abortion and it was such a relief to miscarry instead. Hope all goes well for you
. If it’s ok with everyone I’d like to share my experience online when I’m able to, just for anyone who may come to this thread and find themselves in a similar position and be wondering what to expect with the surgery etc. I think it’s going to be a long night with lots of tears but I know I’m going to be ok in the end. Thank you all again so very much from the bottom of my (very broken) heart 
. You are all very special ladies. XI’ve got my surgical abortion tomorrow. I know I’ve said it before but I just wanted to thank everyone again so much for their kindness and messages of love and support, you may all be strangers on the internet but you’ve helped me more than you could ever know
You got thisI’ve got my surgical abortion tomorrow. I know I’ve said it before but I just wanted to thank everyone again so much for their kindness and messages of love and support, you may all be strangers on the internet but you’ve helped me more than you could ever know
Ive only just discovered this thread. But i wish you the best of luck having experienced same 14yrs ago. I was 1 day legally allowed from doing so as i was quite far on once i found out. Personal circmstances i had to do what was best at time for me as mum and my baby daughter and knowing id be single mum very shortly after for other reasons. He left a mth later sl my instincts was right.I’ve got my surgical abortion tomorrow. I know I’ve said it before but I just wanted to thank everyone again so much for their kindness and messages of love and support, you may all be strangers on the internet but you’ve helped me more than you could ever know
xI've been a lurker on this thread but just wanted to say that I've been thinking of you and I hope you're doing okI’ve got my surgical abortion tomorrow. I know I’ve said it before but I just wanted to thank everyone again so much for their kindness and messages of love and support, you may all be strangers on the internet but you’ve helped me more than you could ever know
This is ever so sweet, thank you ever so much for thinking of meI've been a lurker on this thread but just wanted to say that I've been thinking of you and I hope you're doing ok
. I’m “ok” thank you. As best as can be anyway. 
. To anyone reading this, if you find yourself in this position - Please feel confident in going through MSI. I really can’t praise them enough, I felt so supported during and after. X
This is truly beautiful to read. I had my abortion just over 4 years ago now and was 22 at the time, I’m now 27 and 13 weeks pregnant with a very much wanted baby. I’m so proud of my past self for making that decision as if we’d have kept that pregnancy, the two would have been raised so differently due to finances etc and not being emotionally ready. Choosing to have an abortion is not easy in the slightest, you should be proud of yourself and definitely grieve or mourn any way you need to do, I know I did. I also felt so sad for my former self when I found out I was pregnant that first time round as it was like night and day two very different moments and experiences. It’s so tough but you will feel much better soon I hopeThis is ever so sweet, thank you ever so much for thinking of me
Maybe a trigger warning below so please don’t read on if you don’t want to -
Everything went as well as it could have done 17 days ago. Apart from having to sit in the waiting room for 3.5 hours before I got called through (that was extremely hard. I think they must have been running behind?), I am so immensely grateful and so thankful for the care and treatment that I received through MSI. I believe they used to be Marie Stopes.
I feel really “happy” (it feels wrong to use that word) in my decision to have had the surgery rather than the tablets.
There was a lovely space while I was waiting to be called in for my surgery, where I was left to undress and there was a wall full of sticky notes with words of comfort, kindness and support from other women that had been in my position prior. With things like “forgive yourself”, “you have the right to choose”, “you are still a good person”, “everything will be ok” etc. I was already very emotional at that point but reading those meant so much to me and made the tears fall even harder.
While I’m still really hurting inside, I hope it will get easier with time. I decided to name a star after the baby and I also opted to take the remains home, which I have since buried and planted some flowers on top which I care for daily.
I think that’s been the hardest part of all for me - battling with my thoughts that because I chose to have an abortion, I therefore don’t have the right to grieve or mourn that loss. I so wish I could have kept my child but it wasn’t the right thing to do. I made the decision FOR that child, for my other children and for our relationship. I’ll carry them and the “what if” with me for the rest of my life and I hope that they will forgive me for what I’ve done.
Once again, thank you for asking about me
xxx30 years since mine too. At the time it was definitely forced on me and I resented it for so long and it shaped decisions I made. But that path led to other children later on in a considered way and me being able to provide for them, and myself, in a way I never would have been able to if I'd been a teenage mum. I didn't/couldn't see it at the time but with the fullness of hindsight it was the best thing for all concerned then and now xSo pleased to hear you're doing ok and that the experience was one of support and comfort for you. I can say from experience that although it will never leave you, it does get easier with time. It's 30 years since mine and every now and then I catch myself thinking gosh I'd have a 30 year old child right now, I know that I made the best decision for me and for them at that time and I have never regretted it. Sending you gentle hugs and lots of love
