Writing here for therapy so apologies.
The pandemic has been very difficult for my family, in that my OH’s decision not to get vaccinated caused a lot of rows. I’m a pretty anxious person, an over thinker and a people pleaser. I have a difficult relationship with my sister at the best of times and her reaction to my OH decision lead to a row between us the details of which I won’t bore you with. I expect our relationship will not recover. We still see eachother but mainly through our mother.
In the last couple of days the Irish health service has announced that the second booster is available to all 18-50.
My husband will not be getting vaccinated. I’m also leaning towards not getting vaccinated. My main reason is mental overwhelm. I am a fairly intelligent person on paper but when it comes to Covid I have mental burn out. I don’t understand any of it, I don’t understand how vaccines work for starters, I don’t understand the headlines I’m reading etc etc…
I’m not in a great places physically or mentally, I have a lot of gynae issues.
I am wondering if anyone else is at a place where they want to cry??! I’m sick of all the polarisation, I’m sick of feeling angry at people judging my husband (I’m not saying it makes me “right” it’s just an emotion), I’m sick of feeling anxious every time my kids sneeze, worrying about people dying, sick of working from home etc etc