I agree with the person above - I'm not sure why you're clinging onto this relationship having read some of these posts. He's far away, doesn't sound like he understands or is what you need. You've got someone at home who sounds understanding and wants to help you, why are you clinging to this person abroad? That's a genuine question not confrontation. I know it's hard to let go but it sounds like it's run its course and the relationship isn't what you need right now.
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You’ve been living a separate life from your husband for 2 years with no intention of that changing anytime soon. It’s not a marriage. I can tell you this - under no circumstances would I ever be apart from my husband for that length of time. It just wouldn’t happen. Shagging various other men is a symptom of the fact that your relationship with your husband is over - you’ve crossed that line with seemingly reckless abandon and now you are talking like this “bar guy” is some knight in shining armour who has stepped in to rescue you. Sorry but give your head a wobble. Tell your husband that you’ve been having affairs, be honest and end it with him and then you can do whatever you want but this carry on is pretty out of order. What’s the point in this marriage? You live separate lives in separate countries and you’ve been unfaithful with more than 1 person. It’s pointless. 
I think its important to tell your husband whats happened. I know sometimes people have affairs and don't tell them...but I don't think its fair to deceive the other person in that way - they should be able to make the decision as to whether they want to be with you + work through it, or leave.
I know therapy/counselling is expensive, but a lot of places are offering discounts at the moment for NHS workers. Check out MYNDUP - I believe they have volunteers who are offering free sessions for NHS staff. I'm not sure how many sessions that would entail, but its a start and hopefully it'll work for you.
I would say just work on dealing with one thing at a time. Maybe end the affairs first, then speak to your husband about whats happened, and then check in with a counsellor/therapist and either work through the affairs first, or the COVID-related stress.
I know therapy/counselling is expensive, but a lot of places are offering discounts at the moment for NHS workers. Check out MYNDUP - I believe they have volunteers who are offering free sessions for NHS staff. I'm not sure how many sessions that would entail, but its a start and hopefully it'll work for you.
I would say just work on dealing with one thing at a time. Maybe end the affairs first, then speak to your husband about whats happened, and then check in with a counsellor/therapist and either work through the affairs first, or the COVID-related stress.