I fully understand I'm going to be judged for this. Believe me, I judge myself. Pre warning, it's long.
I've been in a relationship now for 9 years. We have 3 kids.
2 years ago, I met a guy who lives in the US (I'm in the UK) through a mutual hobby.
And we instantly became good friends, along with other people within this hobby.
To begin with, it was purely friendship.
Whilst I felt like he was the one person I could turn to, it was still friendship. I ended up confiding in him with everything, and him the same. Including arguments with my Husband ect
Right before we actually became close and spoke one to one, my partner made it clear he wasn't happy with me talking to these people, even as a group. Because it included males.
I am a 31 year old stay at home Mum who hasn't worked since her first was born 8 years ago, so I don't have any friends really.
My husband isn't the most understanding of people and I've basically brought up the 3 kids by myself without help from him.
Along with that and his anger issues, whilst never physical, always walk on egg shells as to not trigger it, I found myself distancing from him. But as soon as we were without the children, we were back to being our old selves.
My relationship with this guy grew. And normal conversations turned to the odd flirting. We then began having phone call conversations whilst my husband was at work. Again, apart from the flirting, was just general conversation but we'd talk for 6 or 7 hours at a time. It was nice to have someone to talk to.
About 2 months ago. I realised there's a definite possibility I've really fallen for this guy and we ended up getting very close to the point I'm certain this is full on emotional cheating on my husband.
This guy plans on visiting the UK once it is allowed as he has a lot of friends here anyway.
Why don't I feel guilty though?
I grew up with parents who both cheated. My Mum has been married 4 times as had my Dad.
I feel guilty for my kids. But not my Husband. Every time he gets angry, or snaps, or makes little comments about the way I do things ect, it makes me want to turn to this guy and confide in him.
I'm not entirely sure what the point to my post is. But I have no friends to talk to about it. I know for certain people will judge me, and go ahead.
I've been in a relationship now for 9 years. We have 3 kids.
2 years ago, I met a guy who lives in the US (I'm in the UK) through a mutual hobby.
And we instantly became good friends, along with other people within this hobby.
To begin with, it was purely friendship.
Whilst I felt like he was the one person I could turn to, it was still friendship. I ended up confiding in him with everything, and him the same. Including arguments with my Husband ect
Right before we actually became close and spoke one to one, my partner made it clear he wasn't happy with me talking to these people, even as a group. Because it included males.
I am a 31 year old stay at home Mum who hasn't worked since her first was born 8 years ago, so I don't have any friends really.
My husband isn't the most understanding of people and I've basically brought up the 3 kids by myself without help from him.
Along with that and his anger issues, whilst never physical, always walk on egg shells as to not trigger it, I found myself distancing from him. But as soon as we were without the children, we were back to being our old selves.
My relationship with this guy grew. And normal conversations turned to the odd flirting. We then began having phone call conversations whilst my husband was at work. Again, apart from the flirting, was just general conversation but we'd talk for 6 or 7 hours at a time. It was nice to have someone to talk to.
About 2 months ago. I realised there's a definite possibility I've really fallen for this guy and we ended up getting very close to the point I'm certain this is full on emotional cheating on my husband.
This guy plans on visiting the UK once it is allowed as he has a lot of friends here anyway.
Why don't I feel guilty though?
I grew up with parents who both cheated. My Mum has been married 4 times as had my Dad.
I feel guilty for my kids. But not my Husband. Every time he gets angry, or snaps, or makes little comments about the way I do things ect, it makes me want to turn to this guy and confide in him.
I'm not entirely sure what the point to my post is. But I have no friends to talk to about it. I know for certain people will judge me, and go ahead.