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[Mulholland Drive]

After much deliberation have finally decided to fly out to South Africa this month after all.

Contacted the SA Embassy earlier today, and I will be allowed to enter Johannesburg on the proviso of a PCR certificate. So have booked a PCR test and also a flight out.

I was hoping to spend Christmas and New Year here in the UK, but try as I might I really can't, and need a fresh start elsewhere. I just want to be back home with my family rather than cooped up here in the middle of winter.

If all goes well over there, I will be putting my home up for sale, give up my job and move to J'Burg permanently in the Spring.

Got to be optimistic I guess

 

[Mulholland Drive]

The wall-to-wall media coverage of Covid, is really doing my head in. Lots of talking heads, fancy graphs and plenty of speculation etc. but it doesn't really help people's peace of mind.

So am trying to avoid it all and get on with life. Trouble is when I talk to friends or clients via the phone of IM, the conversation always veers back to Covid. There's no escaping it, and there's not a lot we can do about it either.

Apart from that Friday is going pretty well workwise. Just wish the weather would pick up as its overcast, dull and cold

Better tomorrow though

 

[CherryAcid]

Yay a chat thread! I discovered Tattle this year ands its been a great distraction for me. My mum's lifestyle caught up with her and shes been seriously ill(she is much better but still having to have carers daily) she got herself into a mess with finances(some in my name) which I used all my savings to clear. Shes opened up about her mental health and also dropped that my grandad and his friends would sexually abuse her. All of this and my dad suffering with depression, we cant even tell him about the finances or my mums abuse yet as hes not in the right frame of mind to deal with it. At one point i thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown.
I have had major anxiety all my life(its never been treated) due to my mum and the last 15 years or so I expected a phone call in the night expecting she had passed away.
The new year will hopefully be me getting help, I tried once and my gp brushed me off and my sister(who suffers depression herself) brushed me off too. It's hard being the "calm, organised" one, I cant tell you how many times ive cried in the shower just to let it out. I might look strong but I'm a good actress when it comes to my feelings.

Sorry this has turned into a massive vent but I feel like i needed it tonight.

 

[watermelon sugar]

I'm feeling miserable tonight guys. I hope 2021 is better. It's been the best year having my boy but the worst at the same time. It's been hard. Feeling very sorry for myself tonight Glad I've got Tattle though


It's weird how the same usernames you see all time on these threads, especially the off topic ones, seem like better friends than you actually have in real life. (Or maybe that's just me ha? I've got shit friends )

 

[Mulholland Drive]

So much for heading off to South Africa next month

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/global-...south-africa-concerns-emerge-vaccine-rollout/

Well that's well and truly pissed on my weekend mood.


Fuckity Fuck Fuck

 

[watermelon sugar]

How old is your little boy now? I think it's been very had for anyone that had a baby this year. My friends had a little boy in May, he's just gone 6 months now. She had great plans to go to all the Mum & baby groups and take him out and about everywhere but obviously that couldn't happen.

He's 9 months now, I was the same. I was so excited to do lots of things with him. He was born 4 weeks before lockdown so we seen our close family but most of his life has been in lockdown. I haven't seen a HV or midwife the entire time hes been here, he hasn't been weighed since he was 7 weeks old. I get on the scales with him but think its dodgy ha my family live in another town and im stuck with my boyfriends family round us, I only get to see my Mum once in a blue moon. My son doesn't recognise any of my family every time he sees them. Its so shit and depressing

Not to mention my boyfriends getting on my nerves atm too!!

 

[watermelon sugar]

Christmas is different for me this year! I've got a son

Before last year, I worked the 3 Christmas' before that so I werent too bothered about Christmas. Last Christmas I was pregnant so it was a strange feeling knowing I was gonna have a baby this year

I've never spent Christmas with my boyfriend before let alone a baby, so it'll be new and different. I wanted the whole day to just be the 3 of us for babys first Christmas but my fellas Mum kicked up a fuss. Shes an arsehole. So we're seeing them in the morning. She wanted to stay at our house LOL. I put my foot down at that one. I said no, if we're seeing you, we're seeing my family too. So his family are in the morning mine are in the evening

The only presents I've started are the babys. I haven't even thought about any of my families i haven't got my fellas yet either. Uh oh

 

[MrsSoprano]

I wish I could start a thread but still new so cant, My brother split with his fiancé they have been together for 15years and have kids, My sister in law is like a sister to me we are so close, it was her that left my brother (I understand why as he wasn’t the best at putting her first) and now with someone new within a matter of weeks, she is distancing herself from me and I feel really hurt (I know I sound weird and selfish) it’s like I’m grieving but can’t explain

 

[Makaraka]

Me too! I got them in Aldi of all places. They sometimes have them on offer in the middle aisle x

Aldi is the place to be! I work there so I’m always bigging it up!

not long been home from the out of hours docs
Eldest may have a bladder problem which hasn’t been detected since birth!!
Feel like the worst mum ever right now

 

[watermelon sugar]

I got my tree yesterday, only an Asda one, putting it up sometime this week. Need a few more decorations for it first before I even attempt it
Dunno where we are gonna put it or how we are gonna do it because the little man is standing and rags anything that is in his view

I feel a lot better today guys. Thanks for letting me vent last night. Dunno if my boyfriends gonna do me head in yet, he's still in bed the lazy sod

 

[watermelon sugar]

Here it is in all its glory

 

[Mulholland Drive]

Well December has arrived, and the countdown begins.

Have done nearly all of my present and card buying; as well as stocking up on food and drinks. I'm a bit anal when it comes to getting things done and dusted early for things like Christmas and New Year.

Usually I'd be celebrating it with my family in South Africa, but this year will be the first time since graduating 5 years ago I'll be spending CE, CD and NYD here in the UK.

It will be really odd because on CD in Johannesburg my family and I usually have our CD dinner on the patio of the back garden, with music playing along with a BBQ, sun loungers and a paddling pool

Seems that this year it will just be my g/f and I huddled in front of the living room fire opening prezzies and generally trying to keep warm, especially if it snows

 

[DCICassieStuart]

Oooh thank you! I'll have to have a look!



I dont leave near one either. Its miles away! I live near a Lidl but Lidl is rubbish

I have a Lidl about a mile away and Aldi about two miles away, but I'm definitely an Aldi girl. I very rarely go to Lidl. But then, my neighbour is the opposite. She doesn't rate Aldi at all and much prefers Lidl. Whatever you're used too I suppose.

Also, the very hot Polish guy with the great ass in my local Aldi is a good reason to prefer it over Lidl

 

[Mulholland Drive]

Can't believe we're almost at the end of another year!

One month left to go and we'll be talking about New Year resolutions and the hope of a safer year.

Not sure where this year went other than being completely immersed with 24/7 news of the pandemic and how the government is dealing with it.

I used to keep a daily blog at the start of the year, but gave up on it by June July due to Covid. I think everyone will be hoping for better news next year, especially with the vaccine roll-out.

We all need some positivity at the end of this horrible tunnel

 

[DCICassieStuart]

Mine turned up to our wedding in white see through trousers and a white see through top with a white (see through, what else?!) bra underneath.

 

[DCICassieStuart]

He's 9 months now, I was the same. I was so excited to do lots of things with him. He was born 4 weeks before lockdown so we seen our close family but most of his life has been in lockdown. I haven't seen a HV or midwife the entire time hes been here, he hasn't been weighed since he was 7 weeks old. I get on the scales with him but think its dodgy ha my family live in another town and im stuck with my boyfriends family round us, I only get to see my Mum once in a blue moon. My son doesn't recognise any of my family every time he sees them. Its so shit and depressing

Not to mention my boyfriends getting on my nerves atm too!!

My husband's driving me bloody insane if it makes you feel any better! His fucking family. Seriously, I wish I'd married an orphan with no siblings! I'm looking forward to going to work tomorrow for a break

 

[Mulholland Drive]

I'm feeling miserable tonight guys. I hope 2021 is better. It's been the best year having my boy but the worst at the same time. It's been hard. Feeling very sorry for myself tonight Glad I've got Tattle though


It's weird how the same usernames you see all time on these threads, especially the off topic ones, seem like better friends than you actually have in real life. (Or maybe that's just me ha? I've got shit friends )

I can't leave this site alone, but I think in a small way the lockdown is responsible for this. Which is perhaps the only good thing I can say about it

Anyway, despite having a lazy day I am totally cream-crackered, and am now off to bed with a good book, my mp3 player and some chocolate digestives

Night all x

 

[watermelon sugar]

Makaraka and Cassie my BIL sounds like your SIL's!!! Can't stand my boyfriends family, their all arseholes!!!

I'm staying away till it calms down a bit with the shops, its gonna be chocka

 

[Mulholland Drive]

I hate Fridays, its always my busiest day as I work with numpties who save up problems all week then send them to me on Fridays to sort out. (usually at 4 o'clock)

I am determined to do NOTHING this weekend; my plan is PJs, sofa, remote control and nothing much else

I did spend a small fortune on a candle from the White Company but got 20% off. Merry Christmas to me

That's my plan too!

I am gradually winding down my workload as I'm hoping to fly out to South Africa in the next couple of weeks and spend 3 or 4 weeks with my family (depending on the lockdown/tiering fiasco)

But this weekend I don't have anything big planned. So just want to lounge around in my dressing gown or t-shirt and tracky bottoms and slum it for 48 hours (to break up the laziness I might have some cybersex with my girl if I play my cards right, ha!)

 

[Mulholland Drive]

I know this sounds odd, but I spent the morning crying at the thought I've leaving the UK.

I'll be spending 3 or 4 months away from the UK as of next Friday, but OMG it feels like I'll be away for a lifetime.

I spent last night with my g/f getting drunk and getting high, and generally having fun while I still can. And she'll be here for the rest of the week. And I shall miss her when I fly out on Friday (PCR test permitting)

I love the UK and the people in it, and I shall miss it come the day when I leave here for good.

I'm an alcoholic, suffer from SAD and smoke weed. And I cry a lot. I think I need to a fresh start,, but it's equally upsetting to having to leave things behind.

Sorry if this doesn't make sense. I'm just rambling as usual