I've always struggled with body confidence. I'm in my mid twenties, I've never been "skinny" and have grown up watching my mum constantly obsess over weight, calorie counting and be on a permanent diet. Unfortunately she would and still does direct comments at me like "you'll get fat eating that" and has the good food vs bad food mentality. I finished uni in July and had put on 3 stone in 3 years. I've had a poor history with eating habits and spent years restricting myself, eating in a huge calorie deficit, binging etc. In January I started properly calorie counting and looking after myself and have lost nearly 2 stone. I felt great and have been wearing clothes which make me feel good. I've also learned to not take any notice of the comments from my mum.
My only worry now is that I can feel myself relapsing
my confidence is slowly disappearing and my mental health isn't that great right now. I'm starting to compare myself to women on instagram; something which I haven't done for months. I'm planning to stop calorie counting in the new year which I'm hoping will help as I find it draining and I know there's more to life than counting calories. Sorry about the rant, I'm just feeling pretty down right now