Oh here we go, either tell your followers what's going on or don't mention it.
I'd never wish harm on anyone, but I can't be doing with this cloak and dagger crap.
Also, Beggy you are a walking, talking contradiction, you show off & brag constantly, everything is a competition with you. Bigger tree, wanting more & more materialistic shite to fill your home & your life with, even doing your sorrowful stories with Brookes £300 #gifted tree in the background. You just don't get it, do you?!!
Scale back, give something back, be selfless, I can guarantee it would make you feel instantly better.
Christmas is about who is round the tree, you're right, it's also about taking stock of what's important in life...Something that at 43 you have sadly never learned.