Amythomo
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I'd like to reply to this as a fellow stage 4 breast cancer patient. I can relate whole heartedly to what she's going through, because I have extensive mets to bones and critical organs. When I was first diagnosed I contacted NNL for support as i was scared, she never replied but had seen my message. Fair enough, I left it and found others that supported me. Over the last 18 months my cancer has progressed and most recently now my brain. When I had radiotherapy to my brain I had logged on to instagram and saw NNL stories when she was gifted A FREE CRUISE with the most ridiculous childish pathetic look on her face, waving and hanging out of her balcony, like a over excited kid on christmas day and here I was feeling like utter shit, with less than 800 followers which obviously because I don't have a large following was not felt "worthy " enough of a FREE CRUISE. That farnaway is wrong!! Wrong that I was made to feel like that and wrong that there are companies like that that give FREE cruises to people like NNL purely based on the number of "followers" they have on social media and WRONG for NNL to rub it in people's faces, knowing full well she has many people living with a terminal illness that are not worthy enough to be gifted such a nice holiday following her. I definitely wasn't the only person who was made to feel shit by watching those stories. Since then I have absolutely no sympathy or empathy for her and as a nurse and a caring person that goes against every moral fibre of my being but she is the most selfish and fake person there is. As far as I'm concerned she is a master manipulator, I don't doubt her pain or her fear but I don't care for her, I wish her no harm but I won't be saying good things about her when she does die which a lot of people on here will and are already starting to do. She's a horrible person with an ugly personality!!Very few of us can relate to what Nikki’s going through. I do find her extremely irritating (which is why I first sought out her threads) but she’s fucking dying. Calling her a twat cos she posted a picture of herself standing in the sea with her cane? Criticising her positive attitude? Critiquing her (completely arbitrary and subjective) pain rating?
This is a young woman in her prime, who should have a long happy life with much wanted children with her husband ahead of her. Instead she’s ACTIVELY dying. She has months left at most. I know this is a “rage” thread but are people that hate-filled that they don’t have the mental capacity to empathise? Who cares if she’s not coping, or is in denial, or is regressing to childhood, or is faking positivity, or chooses that the pain of sitting in a car for a few hours is worth a memorable night away with her husband (by the looks of things this could be the last ever trip for them). Very few of us here can (and hopefully never will) relate to that.
I’m by no means a Nikki stan. I agree with a lot of stuff on here in relation to her GFM, her greediness, her calculated use of her sickness, etc. And none of this is excusable “just” because she’s dying. But maybe for now just think that this 30 something year old woman is facing the end, knowing that everything will continue once she’s gone. Her young husband is going to become a widower, her family is going to lose a daughter and sister…etc etc. Fucking hell who are any of us to criticise her actions at this time and how she chooses to live the end of her too-short life.
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