Hi everyone, I hope nobody minds me posting this thread.
So, I am 7 weeks pregnant. My partner wanted another baby to give our son a younger sibling so I agreed, as I would love another. I had a really rough time after my son was born 2 years ago - two weeks after his birth I collapsed at home and got rushed into Intensive Care where they found that I had had a massive pulmonary embolism and very nearly died (caused by childbirth). I was 21 at the time, not overweight etc, never smoked so no risk factors.
When I found out that I was pregnant a few weeks ago I had to go for an early scan to check viability due to me needing to start on Fragmin (blood thinning injections) due to what happened to me last time. When we went for the scan a few weeks ago they saw that it was identical twins and they were sharing the same sac and placenta - as you can probably imagine I went into full meltdown and was adamant there was no way I could cope with a twin pregnancy.
They wanted me to come back in 10 days to rescan (which was yesterday) where they only found one embryo with a heartbeat measuring at 7 weeks and the other pregnancy had reabsorbed.
Since the scan I have felt nothing but dread, I feel awful for saying it but I do. I am terrified of giving birth, leaving my little boy and the whole toll that pregnancy puts on your body. I have just started a new career and I am worried that come May I will have to leave.
I am just so torn on what to do - I have a phone consultation with a nurse from my local termination clinic this afternoon to speak through my options, however I really can’t see myself going through with the rest of this pregnancy due to my fears of just about everything. I feel awful as my partner is so desperate for this baby.
Im just in need of a bit of advice, a handhold and if anyone has been through anything similar I would love to know. Thank you!
So, I am 7 weeks pregnant. My partner wanted another baby to give our son a younger sibling so I agreed, as I would love another. I had a really rough time after my son was born 2 years ago - two weeks after his birth I collapsed at home and got rushed into Intensive Care where they found that I had had a massive pulmonary embolism and very nearly died (caused by childbirth). I was 21 at the time, not overweight etc, never smoked so no risk factors.
When I found out that I was pregnant a few weeks ago I had to go for an early scan to check viability due to me needing to start on Fragmin (blood thinning injections) due to what happened to me last time. When we went for the scan a few weeks ago they saw that it was identical twins and they were sharing the same sac and placenta - as you can probably imagine I went into full meltdown and was adamant there was no way I could cope with a twin pregnancy.
They wanted me to come back in 10 days to rescan (which was yesterday) where they only found one embryo with a heartbeat measuring at 7 weeks and the other pregnancy had reabsorbed.
Since the scan I have felt nothing but dread, I feel awful for saying it but I do. I am terrified of giving birth, leaving my little boy and the whole toll that pregnancy puts on your body. I have just started a new career and I am worried that come May I will have to leave.
I am just so torn on what to do - I have a phone consultation with a nurse from my local termination clinic this afternoon to speak through my options, however I really can’t see myself going through with the rest of this pregnancy due to my fears of just about everything. I feel awful as my partner is so desperate for this baby.
Im just in need of a bit of advice, a handhold and if anyone has been through anything similar I would love to know. Thank you!