How can she live like that ! everytime she'd get a notification her heart must sink a little deeper ...sickening .
Because she's been told her whole life that her thoughts have no place in a Godly woman's head.
Her preferences don't matter unless the man in charge of her says they do.
Her body is not hers to make decisions about, it is a commodity she must give up to a man who her father has chosen to sell her to. And if another man who she hasn't been traded to takes what they want from it, then she's the one who is evil, whos soul will be condemned for all eternity, for not wearing a long enough dress.
If a man hits her, or is violent to her during sex then it is her only purpose to pray for kindness for that man.
Her job in life is literally to be raped and to bare children.
Should she ever dissent from that, she'll be proved an unfit mother, never see her children again and be tortured in hell.
She was given 30 mins a week to discuss any feeling about anything with her parents throughout her whole childhood.
The only thing Anna has ever received genuine, pure, mutual love from is her children.
But she had no chance of protecting them from a life of the same, because her brain has been programmed to nullify gut feelings, expectations and any burgeoning seeds of self esteem.
Her thought processes really can, only stretch to, if he climbs on me every night, it'll make it better. I will pray more, this child loves me and it is all I have, so at least when I have to go through sex with this man..I will get another baby and that one loves me too.
And that my friends is why religious cults like IBLP are evil.