Can I join please?
Suffered with depression since a teen, so well over half of my life. I thought I was on an even footing for a couple of years, and my things like relationship/friendships/work all going well. But then a couple of months ago my relationship broke down (honestly all of a sudden and at once) and it's stirred up so much childhood trauma around rejection and abandonment and sent me back down the spiral.
I can barely get out of bed most days, I do because I have a dog and that boy has saved me because I have to get up and look after him, but I'm cancelling plans with friends, volunteering etc (things that usually bring me joy) and just sleeping. I used to love exercise but I haven't moved in weeks. I "go to work" (WFH) and do enough to get by but I feel like I'm failing there too.
I just feel so alone and hopeless. My ex wants to work on things but I'm paralysed with depression and don't know what to do for the best, so I can't even confront yes or no, which I guess also keeps me in limbo of not being able to start to heal.
I started therapy again, but I don't feel I can reach out to friends, who I suspect will think I am being "too much" as it's been months.
Sending care to everyone <3