Mental health

[GiggleBee]

My mental health is at an all time low again. Sat here crying as I type this. Im over this whole covid crap. I want life back to normal, I want to see my friends, my god children ect. I want to go to the zoo, the theatre and I just dont know if itll ever happen again.

In tired of just existing at the moment, Im on the highest dose possible for my anxiety medication so I doubt the doctor will do anything if I contact them.

Im scared of feeling like this .

 

[hrh89]

How’s everyone doing? I’m not in a good place right now really. Nothing to do with lockdown
I just feel utterly worthless. I’ve failed in every aspect of my life. Does anyone else feel like a complete embarrassment? Gosh when I was a kid I never expected to find myself here. You have all those dreams as a child and one by one they all just fall apart.
Sorry if that’s a bit heavy.
I hope you guys are doing okay

 

[Bellaboo83]

Me too, I've had 3 huge negative life events happen in the last 2 months and I'm rock bottom now, barely eating, just existing and lonely and upset.

Do contact your doctor, there might be something else they can suggest. Also mental health support charities might be able help?.. Mind / Samiritans etc. I've found talking online to people to be a bit of a help. Also you are allowed to meet another person so you could maybe plan a walk with a friend outside each day?

If you truly feel you can't cope being on your own any longer maybe you could disclose to a family member or friend how you're feeling and move in with them until you start to feel a bit better?

Sending my love and thoughts

 

[Begborrowsteal]

please do call them.

I have a few MH issues and lockdown has compounded them. So many are feeling the effects too. As am I. I havent found a way to get through painlessly. I am eating and drinking badly, im gaining weight, my body is sore, i have awful mum guilt.. its hard.

No advice, but full sympathies

 

[Sunflower91]

Sending you a big hug.
I cried to my therapist about how much I want to go out for dinner the other week. You’re not alone.
I found myself saying “I know it’s stupid but I really want to..” go x or see y. And she stopped me and said that it isn’t stupid- we’ve had so much taken away from us.
How you feel is valid and exhausting but we will be able to do these things again. When I get a build up of anxiety I like to go out for a walk and listen to some really rage-y rock music. Is there anything similar that helps you unwind?

 

[squarebutton]

Sending love to everyone It’s such a difficult time. Please reach out to people, don’t suffer in silence. Sometimes just a conversation can lift your spirits. My mental health is up and down like a yo-yo. If anyone wants/needs a chat, my inbox on here is always open

 

[DCICassieStuart]

You’re not self pitying at all. I’ve not heard from anyone over Christmas / New Year apart from my close family. Not one Happy Christmas / HNY text.

Out of curiosity I decided that I wasn't going to be first to send anyone a new years message. I was going to wait and see how many people sent me one first.
You know how many people did? One. My neighbour who I chat to if we bump into each other (obviously not literally!) outside.
Not one of my so called friends bothered. One of my friends had her birthday during Christmas week and I sent her a long message wishing her happy birthday, hoping all was well, just a little catch up etc. She read the message and didn't bother replying back.

I know it's been a horrible year for everyone and a lot of people have their own problems, but I'm tired of feeling as though nobody could care less about me. I've had a horrible year myself, for reasons other than Covid and my 'friends' know that I had a lot going on, but none of them give a shit. None of them bother messaging me asking how I am.

Apologies, I didn't mean to turn this into a pity post, but I completely empathise with everyone else posting here. I'm always the idiot who's there for everyone else whenever they need help or support, but when the shoe is on the other foot it appears it's a different story.

 

[hrh89]

How’s everyone doing? I’m not much better than when I last posted here BUT today I’m grateful for the fact I live by the sea. I’m sitting on the beach right now with some music playing in my own world forgetting my problems just for a little while.

 

[Pixipoppy]

Warning: self pitying post!

does anyone else feel like everyone who is supposed to care about them just doesn’t give a shit? I’ve had the most awful few days MH wise and no one has even checked if I’m ok, my partner included. Nothing off friends/family. Not even a normal text to say hi. Nothing. I’ve emailed the Samaritans and even they haven’t fucking replied. I honestly am at my wits end and nobody seems to care apart from random strangers on the internet.

 

[ChampagneBox]

Just want to say to you all if you find yourself spiralling, the Samaritans can be a short term immediate fix..you don’t have to ring them either, you can email or text too I’ve found them really good and I’ve rang and emailed before x

 

[Gembo]

Starting the new year with my mental health the lowest its been in a long time. Yesterday was a really bad day and needed the help of the crisis team. I usually love the new year and the feeling of a fresh start and trying to better myself but today I feel like I don’t deserve anything good. I know in time these feelings will ease but it’s so hard when you’re in them

 

[DCICassieStuart]

My mental health is at an all time low again. Sat here crying as I type this. Im over this whole covid crap. I want life back to normal, I want to see my friends, my god children ect. I want to go to the zoo, the theatre and I just dont know if itll ever happen again.

In tired of just existing at the moment, Im on the highest dose possible for my anxiety medication so I doubt the doctor will do anything if I contact them.

Im scared of feeling like this .

Please do contact your doctor. I know you say you're on the highest possible dose of your anxiety medication, but if it's not working for you anymore, they may be able to change it to something else.

 

[tskiry56]

I hope everyone is getting the support they need.
I struggled with my mental health after dv.
I bottled up so much for so long and didnt talk about it or tell anyone what was going on.
The hardest part for me was admitting the truth and feeling like I would never be happy or loved. I lived a lie for so long.
I held on to a lot of the negative comments my ex made.
Writing my feelings down and talking to people helped me.
I also had counselling and CBT. I know my insecurities etc will never fully go away but I cant let my past define my future.

 

[Gembo]

My mental health has really crashed. Haven’t been able to get out of bed today. Keep crying. Feel anxious and scared for the future. Grieving deeply for my mum as it approaches her birthday and anniversary of her death. Having nothing to look forward too is really not helping and not able to be out and about as much as I used to to keep me distracted. I’ve lost control of my eating and now feeling so exhausted I’m struggling to exercise. Ugh! Really trying to pull myself out of it

 

[working9-5]

Yes also sending love to everyone. You are not alone. Just reach out if you need to talk x

 

[under the ivy]

Out of curiosity I decided that I wasn't going to be first to send anyone a new years message. I was going to wait and see how many people sent me one first.
You know how many people did? One. My neighbour who I chat to if we bump into each other (obviously not literally!) outside.
Not one of my so called friends bothered. One of my friends had her birthday during Christmas week and I sent her a long message wishing her happy birthday, hoping all was well, just a little catch up etc. She read the message and didn't bother replying back.

I know it's been a horrible year for everyone and a lot of people have their own problems, but I'm tired of feeling as though nobody could care less about me. I've had a horrible year myself, for reasons other than Covid and my 'friends' know that I had a lot going on, but none of them give a shit. None of them bother messaging me asking how I am.

Apologies, I didn't mean to turn this into a pity post, but I completely empathise with everyone else posting here. I'm always the idiot who's there for everyone else whenever they need help or support, but when the shoe is on the other foot it appears it's a different story.

That’s exactly how I feel - I’m always the one texting & checking in, when I don’t get it reciprocated. Last year was awful for me & I’m determined this year to put myself first - even that means losing people along the way! My MH will thank me for it.

I’m not sending Christmas/Birthday cards to people anymore either - I used to (pre Covid) love looking round Paperchase etc and buying cards for people and posting them. But then it comes to my Birthday and nothing! Sorry not doing it anymore

 

[hrh89]

anyone struggling with insomnia or terrible sleeping patterns? I’m up all night most night until about 7am when I eventually fall asleep. Sit up most of the night on my phone scrolling tiktok or Twitter. then huge waves of sadness, crying, depression etc etc. I just don’t see the point in being awake in the day does anyone else feel the same

 

[Raininvain]

Whats success and failure anyway? just take each day at a time and try to concentrate on yourself and being healthy. That helped me. Also you can always get another job, relationship,friend/s whatever it is you feel you have failed at. Nothing is set in stone.

 

[Youre a wizard Harry]

Sorry that this is happening to you. It’s an awful time and life has changed in ways I think a lot of us hadn’t thought possible and so much has been taken away from us.
I have MH problems and on the days where I feel like I’m just existing, it takes me back to my worst times which is scary.
When you feel able to, it may be worth trying the doctors again. Look for any online support. feel free to send me a message on here if you want to talk more.
If you are able to get out for a walk, I find that really does help.
Sending love

 

[under the ivy]

I was up until 2am crying about anything and everything. My depression is always bad over Christmas and New Year but it’s particularly bad this year. It isn’t so much Covid related but I’m just really really low. I try and limit how much I’m on my phone but I enjoy this site in particular. I’m just in a bit of a slump & don’t see a way out of it