I had to terminate a pregnancy at 36 weeks due to incompatibility with life, hospital missed massive heart problems. I carried my son for 3 days after having a massive needle into his heart to stop it, and then had to give birth naturally up at Guys. I buried him a week later. Jack was my first born. Jacks memory is with me every day and in the beginning I felt so alone, people would literally cross the road coz they didn’t know wat to say to me! I carry it every day and it is woven into the fabric of who I am. But I never ever use it for gain or sympathy! MM makes my soul seethe xxthis! I have been unwell with my mental health since I was a teenager, due to trauma(s) experienced as a child. I have never flaunted it, I've never used it to get my own way. I'm aware if the stigmas so generally keep it to myself. Same as you, Anxiety attacks, panic attacks, highs and lows. Only in the last few years have I been to counselling, which helps.
I suppose what I'm trying to say is, this is all quite upsetting, he's not raising awareness of mental health or autism. It's just wrong that he's been rewarded for a fake suicide attempt. And Tommy Mallett should be ashamed of himself for partaking in something that totally gives the wrong message about mental health awareness.
It comes to something when every time I'm catching up, I think of something to say as I'm reading with a mind to say it when I'm caught up, and it's been said time and time again by multiple members. He's absolutely transparent! Manipulative, egotistical, and quite frankly dangerous, and I'm in agreement with all of you who said you can see him hurting someone and soon, or pulling his usual shit on the wrong person. Somehow some way I fear someone is going to get hurt. I still cannot fathom how they don't see it and continue to blindly follow along with a "you're amazing/you deserve this/keep shining" yada yada.
Also totally considering going through all the threads to make a note of the tracks for this album, at this rate it's gonna be one of those beastly 4 disc collections
xxxYes he knew her they was talking about Stephen and he kept going on about him like he’s known him forever but the girl has actually grown up with Stephen. She told Marcus that he needs to stop posting shit all over Facebook about Stephen and let us all grieve properly and that personal stuff isn’t for the internet when Stephen can’t defend himself. They then went to part ways and Marcus then went for her. She’s actually been a friend of mine for 10+ years and called me straight after it happened. He told her I was going to beat her up. He the. Called me 10 minutes later giving it the sob story I just told him I’d already spoken to her and that I didn’t want to hear it.Pure love to anyone enduring past or present struggles on this thread
@Mothergoose666 This girl he supposedly fell victim to, who he actually attacked and had to be forcibly restrained as such by Tom, did he know her? Did they know each other? Or what provoked it? Obviously he had to flip it and whine about it, but the poor girl, what was it even about? I actually applaud you for standing by him and his shit for so long. If he's launching himself at people like that you definitely don't need it
If that pair came down my chimney I would call the police! Have to say that's a more flattering picture of Sidney if I say so myself.Good Morning beauts, what a sight for sore eyes Santa & Sid
apparently life is like life online, if you block someone your debts and problems go away. That’s what all the bodies I previously buried though too…. 
I can’t thank you all enough for every kind thing you’ve said.
