Sorry guys, I felt a huge rant coming on this morning in the shower so I hope everyone is cool with me coming here to VENT.
I'm truly speechless by her and Ali's vlogs this week. The amount of waste genuinely makes me feel sick. The depressing graveyard of crap in the attic, the dining room that she's already changed multiple times, cupboard crammed full of last weeks flavour. Stacks of shit she's not even opened under the stairs. Pretty much all freebies.
She's spent (and been gifted) more than ever in the pandemic, haul after haul after haul, buying multiple designer handbags, ripping greedily into boxes in every vlog, changing the rooms over and over, showing off herself "filing away these pieces" - i.e shoving the crap she was obsessed with a month ago into another cupboard.
I'm really tempted for once to leave a comment which I never ever do and just try to ask if she is genuinely so tone deaf that she can't see this is turning people off. She'll delete it or reply with the standard passive-aggressive "I'll do me and you do you lovely x" so it's probably not worth the energy.
So much to unpick in all those videos - her insane self-esteem, the compulsive buying and urgency to change everything constantly - as always - but one thing I just can't wrap my head around is how does she have so little self-awareness about how it all looks?
I mean she clearly cares a lot about what others think of her. She spends every ounce of her energy every day showing off, bragging about how rich, pretty, thin she is. How expensive her things are. Can she not even see from a very practical business perspective that this just does not make her look good in any way shape or form?
How does she think this is good content? How can she not see it makes her look like a spoilt little shit? She can tell herself her videos are 'escapism' but when people are losing their jobs, relying on tiny government support packages - who the fuck wants to watch this brat unwrap another freebie? It's so gross that she cares more about her 'luxe' rich girl image than just maybe pulling back a little this year and concentrating on some more wholesome content, y'know - so you don't make people feel extra shit about their circumstances during a global pandemic.
She's got nothing in the tank for that though - wine, reading, gardening, classical music - she's learnt absolutely nothing about these things she's not interested - she just loves to say she does them. If she was actually interested even a tiny bit in any of these hobbies she could have swapped out the endless hauls for some really wholesome sit down videos about what she was learning. But that's far too much effort for her, she won't be able to make so much coin and she'd rather just show off how everything rosy for HER.
She can pay as many therapists as she wants to tell her she's a good person and sure - she can spend her money on whatever she wants but
choosing to show what she shows - that is a choice! She has a platform. And that is not a choice that anyone with an ounce of empathy or kindness would make.
Just for context I am freelance and I've always ran my business online and remotely before the pandemic happened. I actually use my freedom with my work situ to travel the world, experience different cultures and learn different languages. Y'know instead of holing myself up in a nursing home buying 300 quid cushion covers but you know Lidl - I'll do me and you do you
Anyway I digress - whilst of course like most other people Covid has affected my work a little and my life a little but I'm for sure one of the very very fortunate people to not have been affected too much and I'm grateful for that every single day.
So just to put this rant into some context that this doesn't come from any place of envy and bitterness. Also y'know. I also care more about spending my money on fun experiences with people I love than buying 150 quid coffee cups