Hi everyone!
I've been lurking for a few days but felt the need to comment. I just have SO MANY QUESTIONS and DON'T UNDERSTAND what is going on.
So first, I found Kylie's Renovating a Ruin channel a few weeks ago because my Italian partner and I have been thinking about moving back to Italy to start a permaculture lifestyle (more Kiss the Ground, compositing, regenerative agriculture, rebuilding arable soils; less housewife nobility on a Tuscan estate). We got really into the channel for a while because there were a lot of insights about restoring property/bureaucracies that we thought might be helpful. We came late to her content, binging the whole playlist on the Ruins, and so then started looking for more of her videos. That's when we started to realize something was so off. The random inconsistencies, the blatant lies, the obvious filter that she uses, the strange accent/baby voice, the bedroom eyes at the camera to herself ALL THE TIME, the proposal (!! "Are you sure?"), whatever that wedding video was supposed to communicate -- I mean, I don't need to tell you all.
I'm not personally offended because, I mean, why should I be?? I never paid a cent on Patreon, I am not a subscriber, I literally do not care about some random YouTuber... And in at least some of her videos I found some helpful stuff (although definitely rethinking some of the things I thought I had "learned" now). But then why am I so engrossed by the mind boggle of it all? Why is it so bewildering? I mean, who is this person? It seems like the scandalous start to some socialite true crime series that will be appearing on Netflix in the future (not the glorified collab she has been talking about!).
Things personally felt off for me a few episodes in when Guido clearly did not want to be involved in the chicken coop thing and showed no affection and even seemed passive aggressive toward her and it became so obvious that there was little to no love or care between them on a deep level. So at first, I felt bad for her! As I have watched more and read your commentary here, it's become clear that 1) obviously her editing frames him in a certain way, 2) she is way more controlling than she wants to appear in the videos (the whole Guido running thing and the focus on his doctor wanting him to lose 5 kilos and how he can't drink wine is just awful!), 3) the fact that she's practically "taking over" the family estate, making changes, doing random renovations as she pleases -- did she really ruin the floor with the tractor oil???? Lol. Not to mention the invasive filming of every single thing (within the bounds of what she wants seen). We never see Guido's family or friends -- but then again, we never really see anyone but Kylie. Even when her own family visits she barely shows them. Is it everyone's choice to not be filmed by her, or hers to not film them so she can be on camera the whole time herself? Probably both! I feel like the worst is when she's interviewing Egisto and his wife and they are sharing really moving stories about the farmhouse as a refuge to communist miners during World War II (my partner's family has similar stories) and she just mumbles, barely responding at all (ah, sì!), and trivializes the whole thing -- so much lost opportunity for conversations about history/art, not to mention dismissive disrespect.
I understand the narcissistic personality, obviously, as the answer to much of this, but at the same time, I just cannot seem to comprehend what the hell rabbit hole I've tumbled down (by which I mean my general visceral response to the whole thing)? It's so strange because on the one hand I found (early on) some of her videos to be interesting (and I have by no means watched them all!), but then the over romanticization not even of Tuscany but of HERSELF!! It's too much. So so so vain, reporting that she's never worn makeup which is contradicted in an episode a few months earlier in the bathroom reno series by the "bathroom box" she buys FOR her very expensive and expansive (!) makeup collection, not to mention the obvious filters/photoshopping on her face.
I guess my question is: Wtf am I experiencing?!?!? I just don't understand who this person is and why I suddenly have become so engrossed by understanding her narcissistic posturing.
Is it simply the phenomenon of celebrity gossip magazines moving to online forums now and into the hands of curious speculators? We can entertain ourselves with sleuthing and speculating (and yes, I agree, this forum is way more entertaining than her videos!) and therefore fill in the gaps of the incomplete stories she tells or debunk the downright lies. That these forums exist is a fascinating development of the reality tv genre alone... But I digress.
If anyone has any insight into this strange experience (I don't hate her, I don't wish her ill, and yet I can't understand what I'm feeling...), I'd love to hear your thoughts!!
Cheers