my brothers just came round to drop me off a trent mini figure thing (??) and has said he recons john stones is a well put together gentleman with a skincare routine, after i told him about my new love for him
Just bleurghing this out so it's not festering in my head. Feel free to ignore.
I just feel all the time like I'm constantly being pulled from one thing to another, like every time a problem comes up someone says, "gossgoss worked on this once, she'll know what to do" and then I'm pulled into calls that are nothing to do with what I'm supposed to be working on, and I'm having to try to remember shit I did weeks or months ago and apply that knowledge on the fly to whatever's going on with it now.
And of course I don't mind helping people out but most of the time it's ad hoc and it's like it's not expected to impact the amount of my actual work I can get done in a day.
Overheard work crush on the phone to my boss this morning, asking if he could borrow one of the team, "ideally gossgoss" to work on something complicated for him. It was a nightmare as well but at least he properly arranged it, and unlike almost everyone who dumps stuff on me he actually came and sat with me and explained it and helped me make decisions about it and didn't just leave me floundering on my own. Crush aside, a little bit of support goes a fucking long way.
Also, a while back my boss told me I had to get better at reviewing other people's work. This was after a project where I'd given someone a load of feedback and hadn't gone through their work with a fine-toothed comb afterwards to make sure they'd made the changes I'd suggested, and they'd missed some things out. It turned out the changes were needed and not having done them caused problems. So boss and I sat down and agreed I'd work on it, being more thorough with my reviews and following them up.
So this week I sent over a bunch of feedback to someone who had done some work for me. It took me ages to go through it because of the constant interruptions as above, but eventually I got it done and sent it over.
Then today he's responded with feedback on my feedback, basically challenging everything and saying it's not needed. So now I have to go back through that and explain and justify myself and it pisses me off how much this has upset me because I pride myself on being easy going and open to criticism and I don't want to be all defensive. But my head is whirling about how shit I am at everything, and the guy I gave the feedback to is loads more experienced than me so I have impostor syndrome alarms going off everywhere and I feel like I'm just making more work for myself and I just want to shrug and say yeah, you're right, I'm sorry, leave everything as it is, except I know then I'm back to step bloody 1 where I'm not good enough.
Then today on top of everything I had to give a presentation, not a huge one but the type of presentation my boss told me I was awkward in before, so I just powered through it hardly able to concentrate on what I was saying because of you are a bit awkward, aren't you front and centre of my mind.
I don't know why it's all bothering me so much. Past few days I've felt like it's manageable but then today it's just been a wave of feeling like I'm no good at anything.
will catch up i minute but just wanted to come here to scream/rant
i’ve just finished work after starting at 8 this morning so pulled a 14 hour shift because people don’t understand deadlines and everyone fucked off and left me to finish it alone and i’m ready to burn my office to the ground!!!! i hate working with men they are entitled dickheads who think their time is more valuable than line i swear i’m gonna start a fight tomorrow
I feel like I'm going to be one of those friends that only comes to you for help This is a totally selfish post but the JG one doesn't seem the place for spilling your personal shit on anymore.
Picked up my keys for my flat purchase and oh my god, buyers remorse is a very real thing. My flat, once decorated will be cute. The neighbours and location less so. I was very aware of this but now I'm scared. It's not like Compton or Beirut ( apologies if you live there, I'm basing this on films!) but I feel unsettled. I can make my flat safe, and I know it's all new and things take time but I think I've emptied my body of tears. Any words of wisdom.
Softening this with I think John has a nice face and i'm partial to his friend Kyle, more out of curiosity than desire.
Morning ladies. I can’t cope with these; his hair, eyes, stubble, lips. God he’s annoying
Also morning musing. This photo was from the weekend - its only beginning of October and he has a t-shirt, hoodie AND jacket on?! Why so nesh baby
Anyway hope you all have a lovely Thursday
@2busyshopping34 - I agree with the others - sack him off, you can do way better and don’t waste anymore of your time on him honey. Plenty more fish in the sea (maybe even some in the Barnsley sea)
cba fuckin third one this year that’s dabbled in other women yes i have! just canny believe it after he took me on holiday for my bday feel like muiraneen or whatever the fuck she’s called
I just don’t understand why you’d get all those awful tattoos of your Mrs, split up with her, laser them off; then repeat the whole thing with the next girl
Like surely the fact he’s removed some previously takes away the sentiment from it all
Although to be fair Nanna on the thigh has to be the worst of them all bless him
What would you say if I had decided to bin off writing a Leroy sequel to potentially write a bae/HK one shot instead!? (DO NOT get excited, I don't even have a plot yet, just an urge to write it)