I've never told anyone this...

[Qwerty124]

I've never told anyone this, ever and feel so much guilt because we have a really good relationship so I feel like I'm betraying her by even typing this. I dont know if it is even a big deal?

My mam and I went on my first holiday abroad when I just turned 8. She sometimes would leave me alone in my hotel room to go down to sleep with the waiters on the sun beds on the beach. We had a balcony overlooking the beach. One night I was so distraught at being left alone, I was shouting at other waiters directly below to try and get my mams attention. It never worked. I often cried myself to sleep that holiday.

 

[Kandy floss]

I hate having sex.

It feels ok when it’s happening and my partner is great and always without fail makes sure I orgasm multiple times so that’s not my problem.

But the thought of it turns me off. I never want it and when it’s happening I just want it to be over. Me and my partner are young yet rarely sleep together. I was groomed online and raped by someone older when I was 14 which I think is a large part of it and I was also raped on a night out when I was 19. My ex also used to rape me regularly so I think I just can’t associate sex with anything positive.

I love my boyfriend so much, I just wish he didn’t want to have sex with me.

 

[bunnyboo]

I’ve taken two years of her evil behaviour

every single day I’ve had shit slung at me from her

im human-and I lost it-maybe I shouldn’t have done it but I’d got so ground down by it

it was ok for her to destroy my stuff,steal from me,try to break my relationship up,lie ,be rude/swear at me hurt my sons dog and much much more?

maybe I am evil-or maybe,just maybe I snapped-guess we’ll agree to disagree on this one

Not evil at all! As you said, you're only human and we all have our breaking points. There's only so much a person can take before snapping.

Tbh, I'd be more concerned about your stepdaughter attacking your son's dog. Intentional animal torture and cruelty (IATC) is a warning sign that someone could go on to commit more serious offences and can could possibly be a sign of anti-social personality disorder or similar. I'm by no means an expert, or making any sort of diagnosis but it is definitely something to monitor and very much regard as troubled behaviour.

 

[watermelon sugar]

I will eat and enjoy any residue out of my orafices bar shit and piss but including ear wax, blackheads, bogeys, eye crust, yeast from thrush and so on... I also love swishing my freshly bitten toenails round my mouth.

I must have missed this bit the First time round jesus

 

[Practically Perfect]

When I am driving I pretend I am on X factor and sing as if i am the best singer in the whole wide world. I get a Susan Boyle reaction. Simon signs me straight away. The audience are giving me a standing ovation, they are crying at just how wonderful I am; I am just magnificent. Its good fun until you get to the lights and people clock you doing it and you cannot actually carry a tune in a bag.

( i also shagged my boss in the comms room but thats a secret that i am not gonna tell, even on here, just in case i get outed - oops)

 

[Sparks]

When I was 11 or 12 my friend and I really fancied this boy in the year above us. We used to wave at him, give him little notes and even called him at home to ask him stuff like what is your favourite tv show, what's your favourite colour etc. This boy was super shy, so bad that he told his mum he didn't want to go to school because of us. His mum phoned the teacher and she talked to us about it. In front of the whole classroom. I was so embarrassed. We never looked at him again and never talked about it. Poor boy, we really didn't mean any harm. We just really liked him.

 

[Member]

PebbleDash makes me feel extremely boring...

PebbleDash makes me feel like throwing up

 

[HelloStereo]

I pretended to family and friends I was going back to uni but I hated it so instead moved to London with just a suitcase of possessions, no job and about £200 in my bank account.

 

[witchofwestbyfleet]

Worked with a revolting man, years before internet. So i put an add in the newspapers selling his car, motorbike and a looooong list of items and his home number for people to call. As every was dirt cheap he had calls the whole weekend, had to unplug his phone and had to pay for the add. Must say i felt very guilty going to work that Monday as everybody were talking about what happened to him

I did something very similar. I was an admin at a company and noticed that on the list of IT contractors we worked with was a man with a very distinctive name that I recognised from around the internet - he is a racist, anti-Semitic, misogynistic thug. I took down his number, wiped his contact details from the system so that he'd never be offered work from the company again, and then signed him up to receive spam calls from PPI-type services. I felt bad about it but at the same time, he deserved it (I'd Google searched to be as sure as possible that it really was him and not just someone with the same name)

 

[Girlinabubble]

I had a very difficult mother in law to be and each time I got out of my boyfriend’s car I adjusted the old fashioned style seat belt so that whenever she got into the car she’d have to adjust it to make it quite a bit bigger !

 

[HoGi]

My mum has a terminal illness and now has the mind of a 1-2 year old, she doesn’t recognise me, my dad, her home, her reflection, she can’t speak properly, can’t wash herself, can just about bring herself to the toilet (but not for much longer) I often think she’s gone now and the illness has taken over and I just want her suffering to end and for her to pass but instantly feel guilty thinking it and even worse for writing it

My dad had dementia and was the same. I was visiting his care home alone once and there was a pillow on the floor and for a second I considered ending his suffering.

I feel guilty for both considering it and not doing it

 

[aimz_yeah]

I'm the perpetual single. I haven't had a boyfriend since I was 18 and even that was short lived. I hooked up with a guy for a bit last year but he wasn't really interested (neither was I to be fair).

I feel lonely and attention starved but I am too good at being single. I don't know how to let anyone in. In the back of my mind is the acceptance that I will never have a proper relationship or someone who cars.

I also don't really have friends. I had crappy ones in school and don't know how to make good ones now. I just have good aquaintances but no one really cares. No one would message me if I didn't first and I've had a few recently who just ignore me.

 

[AlanBanan]

One time I attempted murder on an ex. It was before I finally realised I was a lesbian.

18-19 year old me was in a relationship with a right prick. He was gorgeous but he was a bastard. When we had broken up he had done everything to antagonise me and bother me. So I was thoroughly fed up with the constant feeling of being put down and made to feel like I was the bad person who hurt him. Also he had told our friends lies about me that weren’t true, and that the stuff he was saying about me, he did to me, cheating and lying etc.

So one night at a house party, I finally confronted him on the landing of the stairs. He got aggressive with me so I got aggro back and squared up to him. So I threw a punch in his face, he kicked me on the shin and then said “stick your fingers down your throat you love doing that, you tramp” (backstory I suffered from an eating disorder as a teenager and young adult) and with that my subconscious just said “okay it’s time for him to die!” So with that I pushed him over the banisters of the stairs and he grabbed me so we fell over the stairs in unison in a flurry of fists and kicks. When we landed on the ground we continued to batter each other senseless.

We both got kicked out of the party, he had bruised ribs and I had broken one of my fingers cause of how we fell, he then accused me of attempting to murder him, which I wholeheartedly denied even though I had every intention of ending his life that day ahaha.

None of my current friends know this about me. So have a nice time reading this ahaha.

 

[Hereforthegigs]

I lost my job , and have 3 children not much support , money is very tight , to provide so sort of Christmas for them I had sex for money so so ashamed about it now

Bless you hun, don't feel ashamed. Us mums would do anything for our babies and you doing that has honestly made me tear up. Here's to a better 2021 for you xx

 

[blob1234]

And just to add I think everyone has done stuff they are ashamed of. Those things you did do not define you as a person today, don’t let that stuff hang over you and forgive yourself. You are not alone!

 

[Pinkblush]

That made me laugh so much was the dog ok in the end then haha

He was absolutely fine, thanks. After she picked him up and brought him in I couldn't believe the way he came bounding over to me wagging his tail with his tongue hanging out. She thought I had some special connection with dogs

 

[Bitofthebubbly]

I find it very sad that I have to tell my son to always wear a condom because he can’t completely believe any woman he sleeps with, even if he’s in a long term relationship, you would think a long term partner could be trusted but as this thread shows you shouldn’t

You should be telling your son to use condoms because it reduces the risk of std’s and also ensures he’s taking responsibility for his own fertility, not because a woman may or may not lie about birth control (birth control can also fail so there’s that too).

 

[freda19]

Mammy ... it was me who hid one of your oven shelves and your big beloved roasting dish under the shed.

I was eight. I've watched my mammy bake since I was a toddler, and often helped, so one day when I was home alone I decided to make some butterfly buns. Got everything mixed and then discovered we had no paper bun cases. What to do. Well I spotted an empty egg tray and thought " That'll do. The buns will be a bit small but whatever," didn't wanna waste the mix. Spooned the mixture into the egg tray and popped it in the pre heated oven and trotted off to watch telly. 10 minutes later the most appalling smell wafted into the living room so I hot footed it into the kitchen to check and it was full of disgusting stinky smoke. I turned the oven off and threw the door open and promply shit my pink Barbie pants.
It never dawned on me that using a plastic egg tray in a hot oven was a bad idea. The oven shelf was dripping melted plastic and burning cake mixture into mums big roasting tin that she stored in the bottom of the oven.
After I'd calmed down a bit I did what any 8 yr old would do ... I hid the evidence in the gap under the garden shed. Then I cleaned the kitchen mess , flapped a towel till my arms ached and prayed.
When mum came home she went "What the heck is that stink? Them boys over the fields lightin' wee fires I bet. Throw the front windas and door open Freda love." Phew! Prayers answered.
Weeks later dad found the oven shelf and roasting tin under the shed and mum berated my big brothers for whatever she thought they'd done, because boys, right?
Sorry mammy. Not sorry bros.

 

[Freebies_come2me]

Skipped work at my previous job with an "upset stomach" and went to a daytime screening of How To Train Your Dragon by myself instead. No regrets

Haha I have a mate who used the period pain excuse all the time. One day her boss came to her and said ‘hey your period date is not consistent ‘

 

[ChampagneBox]

I slept with an old work client a few times, in his car not too far from where he worked. Usually after we had meetings there together.

I was in a relationship at the time which was hanging on by a thread as he’d already cheated on me but showed so much remorse I stayed. I know two wrongs don’t make a right and I do feel bad about it but it gave me a push to end things and move on.

I still speak to and see this guy every now and then for work reasons. The sexual tension is ridiculous but it’s as if we both have a silent agreement that it’s over and done with. Sex was a solid 9.5/10

I’m curious to know what the .5 was marked down for