Hey guys, I've never commented on Gemma's threads before but I've lurked for so long I feel I need to get my say, sorry if I go on a bit!
I watched Gemma from the beginning (literally before 20k followers from what I remember) but stopped around the time she got back with that boring lump she calls a fella. I only watched her because she was SO relatable at the time, I genuinely felt we were incredibly similar people and could really understand her 'mental health struggles', so to speak.
I think she lost herself when she moved out of that little cottage she was renting and decided she was too good for a simple, humble life because she was so busy trying to be Elle Darby (lol why). She fucked up with Charley (who I thought was always very uncomfortable and unsupportive in her videos and I never liked him tbh) But she clearly stayed and cheated so she could use his house for clout until she had enough money to leave him (anyone remember she bought her laptop and camera on finance and was in debt back then?).
Then she lost Sophie who was seemingly the life and soul of her entire existence/Channel. I used to watch them and think Godd I wish I had a bestie like Soph, so genuine and always championing Gemma, despite the fact they'd had a huge fall-out previously. Personally I think Jamie was more into Soph to begin with (who wouldn't have been, she was gorgeous and hilarious without even trying) then he saw the influencer $$ signs and Gemma fully KNOWS this, hence why she binned Sophie off and now just has an empty relationship.
I think she's very depressed. She knows Jamie isn't her dream man behind closed doors, she knows she only had Noah because Elle had Saint and she felt left out (remember the questions and answers vlog where she said she was happy for people like Elle and Carys but having a babies etc wasn't on her agenda.. then immediately tried to get pregnant).
She has a very unfulfilled life but she's done it all to herself. She thinks spouting off about manifesting and the Law of Attraction makes her a good person but she's not, she's selfish and put her looks, money and online appeal before everything that actually meant something to her and now she has nothing.
My point being I used to LOVE this girl but now I honestly can't stand her. I think she needs to seek psychological help and learn how to put her past behind her and start again, preferably without Jamie (who is 100% a control freak, I can see the signs just as I saw in my own ex).