Hi Tattlers. I've never posted in this thread before, but I have a long history of depression. I'm now in my early 30s and I've had it off and on since puberty.
The past 2 years have been absolutely awful... I lost a job because of bullying from colleagues, which made me have such bad panic attacks that I've become a hermit. My dad died of cancer. My addict mother has been a nightmare. I was sexually assaulted by a "friend" and took him to court, which took almost a year... then at the last moment the case was thrown out before we got to court! Not because he was not guilty, but because the Crown Prosecution Service said it wasn't worth their money, basically. I was in a minor car accident. It was only minor, but I guess it's made me get scared really easily. This summer I started dating a long time friend of mine, and I thought this was happily ever after. But it turned out that behind closed doors he was really emotionally abusive. Now I have lost all hope.
I am on a strong dose of mood stabilisers and anxiety meds, which work better than anything else I've tried. But the past month or so I have been randomly bursting into tears all the time.
I should write something more constructive, but I can't think clearly right now. Sorry. Hi everybody.