I think before the boys she was different for a couple of reasons, she was having trouble conceiving so wasn’t as smug as she now is as there was still the hurdle of getting the something she didn’t have but wanted. But even with that the main difference is she knew who she was back then, she was confident in her slimming world role and she was comfortable being the SW queen bee of the area, her instagram was taking off as SW followers flocked towards her. For the most part she was still vain but everything in her world was ticking over nicely. Then the ivf worked, and she seen all these Insta mums getting the paid promotion work etc and set her sights on all of that, using her SW base following she’d already gained. Then it all became muddled, she was a new mum, she gave up being a consultant (or was pushed who knows to this day!) and didn’t know who she was anymore. She tried to do all this different stuff, YouTube content, Insta mummy meet ups yet still trying to sound like an SW consultant, but not really, It confused us all so she must have really confused herself! Nikki should have just concentrated on being the first time mum she claimed she longed to be, and soaked it all up. Instead of seeing the boys as her cash cow and props, and getting caught up in the Insta game/machine, going a million miles per hour and becoming insufferable. Who she is today is quite sad to witness really, I have days where I think she must really love herself, but then all she’s doing to herself isn’t actions of someone who has high self esteem and good self confidence? Someone who is happy within doesnt need the constant validation that she does. It’s like she’s constantly trying to find herself again, and reinvent herself and keep up with the what’s in trend of social media. When you’re 40 surely it’s the time to leave chasing the love island z list celeb lifestyle, and just be content with what you have in life and enjoy it!