Please know it gets easier with time, I say my recovery is my greatest achievements, but was also my biggest struggle. It's only been the past couple of years have I accepted that I was never happy with how I looked, if anything more obsessed when a lower weight and it took time to think that I may as well just be healthy. I really did find it helpful to unfollow Ed related people on Instagram, I know it's hard but if you're anything like me and log into insta everyday, it takes away the constant reminder of others