Morning! I am off to b&m for the first time ever today. Just call me
@coconochanel
I hope you post a haul once you have been.
What is hanky panky pie?
Lots of love
@Belle Amie @strawb and
@Belle Amie I hope you all slept well and today eases and a little bit easier.
@Belle Amie I am sorry you are struggling so much right now. Have you ever had therapy for your ocd? Exposure is hard when you are struggling but in the long run it could offer you some relief. Or distraction, when you get that urge can you remove yourself from the situation; perhaps go into your garden/put your hands under running water/look around you and find 10 blue things/listen to a meditation/come to this thread and post? Anything really. I'm probably telling you stuff you already know. Though I know when you are struggling it is hard to remember those skills, perhaps write a list of things you can do when you have a thought/compulsion/obsession. Then when you are feeling bad you can grab that list and work your way down the list. I know distraction is really hard and when you are in the middle of it. But it does help in the long term. You could build up 5 minutes of distraction and then seeing if you still feel that same way and be to act on your compulsion/obsession. Then you could build up time. OCD is hard and ask often misunderstood, but do keep talking to us, there is always someone here with a kind word and I am sure when you are in the middle of struggling someone will be here.
How well do you get on with your manager at work? Are you able to share with them how you are feeling? Maybe they can ease your work load? Do you have a good GP can you talk to them?
Sorry for a hundred questions. Try to remember this feeling is temporary and it will pass, you won't always feel this way. I am sorry you are having a tough time right now. We are always here though, it takes a lot of courage to say "I am not ok" . But we are always here.
Could you block your ex so you aren't aware? Or delete (archive it if you want) so you aren't seeing it. A relationship ending is always hard. But you don't deserve to torture yourself when he changes a photo or a status. One day you will look back and wonder why you cared so much about what he was doing.
Sorry for such a long lost. Feel free to ignore! Sending you lots of love xxx