Chit Chat #27

[ordinaryjelly]

Oohhh you lot are clever beans!! Can’t even comprehend work at the moment my brain is mush

You did just grow an entire human, birth an entire human and keep an entire human alive though.

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And thanks all for your kind words, I didn't mean to be so vague earlier, I was just sad and fed up of talking about it.

Basically, last night an agency member of staff put her hands on my chest to try and pin me (bear in mind I am paralysed with a complete c5 injury) to the bed, she then got a picture of my son down from the wall and put it right in my face telling me "look at him, just look at him, he is your reason to get better" (not once in the 260 days I have been in hospital has a day gone by when I have forgotten about my babies at home) and refused to put my property back on the wall. She then realised I had pressed record on my phone and had this all on video so she tried to pin me down again and get my phone from me. Then she took my call bell away from me and repeatedly refused to leave my room.

Anyway, they have made the safe guarding referral now and she is automatically suspended pending the investigation.

I just feel bad because she is not a bad person, she has worked here before and it has been fine. Last night was just beyond bonkers.

I am sad. And scared because you are so vulnerable when you are like me and stuck in bed. You have complete reliance on your caregivers being decent, good people, I can't get up and walk out like I would in a bad hotel or restaurant.

Just meh.

 

[ordinaryjelly]

Just to make you all laugh. I use a swipe keyboard to help me type. For some reason it has deleted all my presets. It had made my name Subway Gasket instead of Sxxxxx Gxxxxx. I have just argued with Shell Energy about whether this is actually my name before I realised what had happened.


Subway Gasket.

 

[watermelon sugar]

I totally defied all of your advice and wore the other dress lol

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[make-mine-whiskey]

Hi guys, what a few days I've had! Well week lol. Sorry I've been so MIA. I put in another complaint to m boss and said I've been made to feel unwelcome and that I didn't feel like I was apart of the team and his response was "sorry we missed your unhappiness" .... no questions to ask what has happened or any way to try and help resolve any matters so I knew I had to leave, that was last Tuesday then Wednesday I had a job interview, Thursday I called in sick and then Friday I got offered the job and sent my resignation effective immediately lol then I had my niece today because my BIL got rushed to A&E I can't keep up with life let alone Tattle

 

[WilmaHun]

Gutted I'm at work today someone we know who lives down my road has had their house drug raided this morning and I would have been curtain twitching like there's no tomorrow i LOVE neighbourhood drama

 

[ordinaryjelly]

@Boredofthegram you are another name I miss a lot when you are not as active. I am sorry you are having a tough patch. If you lived near me (and I was at home, or even if not mr jelly is there and he is running a wild ship so anything could happen) you could come over and both be fed, mini bored can run wild and free with my bunch and you can sit on the sofa with your legs tucked under you in your comfy clothes and just get cosy and relax for a while. Sometimes it is just to be looked after and not be the one having to make the decisions 24/7 that we need. You and mini would always be welcome at mine.

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Lovely doggos, I love seeing the pictures of everyone's pets. I'm definitely a dog person but the cats you all share are lovely too.

I think I have realised why I adore and value you lot so much. There is real, kind, genuine support given to people who need it but then the next post down is one of those pick one from each row A5B type things and it just fits in seemlessy and then we are all talking about favourite ice lollies alongside the supportive posts that someone else needs right now.

So fab. (the ice lolly too!) I know I have said it before but having you lot as my link to the outside world is so important for my mental health, just seeing you chat about b&m or the new McDonalds burger is so nice for me even if I cannot add to the conversation. It reminds me that the real world is still out there turning even if I am isolated and not part of it.

Anyway, another day here. Two of my favourite staff are working today. And they are going to give me a bath, they have a really fancy bath here that you can be hosted into and it has bubbles like a hot tub. It is so nice for my body but also for my mental health. I would always take a bath at home as a little pick me up and treat at the end of a rough day.

I have always struggled a bit with my mental health, with anxiety and ocd (see, I am a clinical psychologist in my job life, we are real people too!) But this week have fallen off a cliff with it and am in a really dark pace with it all. The things I know help me are things I am not able to do easily - have a nice bath, take a walk in nature etc., now.

Anyway, it is a new day. The blue sky is here outside my window and so I'm trying to focus on the positives that I can see. I'm lucky here because i have a lovely view from my window, over fields/countryside and can see horses in the field - there are little bits of positivity out there.

Anyway, have rambled enough. That is how you can tell I'm not right, I sit here giving my entire life story to anyone who will listen!!

 

[ordinaryjelly]

I am having the day of all days. I just want something to go right for once. The hospital here are raising a safe guarding concern about an incident that happened last night between me and an agency member of staff. This hospital have always been wonderful, they have great staff. Just a not so nice agency staff member last night and now it is born into something huge.

We are playing bingo this afternoon though so that is cheering me up.

 

[WilmaHun]

I've woken up with the biggest yellowhead on my chin. I've tried to cover it with concealer and foundation but in all honesty I think I've made it look worse. Mr Wilma came downstairs this morning and started waving at me so I said "what you doing dickhead" and he said "ah sorry just waving at the habitants of that planet on your chin". Prick.

 

[WilmaHun]

Facts

 

[watermelon sugar]

Ok I’ve dropped him off. I cried he didn’t even notice me and mr melon walked off so I think that made me cry more

 

[watermelon sugar]

@ordinaryjelly he was running the place for a friend where he was, so he was managing the butty van that is connected to the butchers basically, he was more selling and running but doing a bit of cheffing, anyway it was his friend and his friends fucked him over and got someone else and replaced mr melon! But mr melon is going back a pub another friend runs which is a bit of a step down but he’s gonna look about whilst he’s there, he’s doing bar and a bit of cooking when need be

here’s mini melons first art work he’s brought home. I know no one cares probs but it’s so special to me

 

[Peaches_xox]

So I’ve just found out my fella got his mum a card and flowers for Mother’s Day from little peaches. Little peaches told me. I got nothing. I am going to lose my fucking shit when I get home.

 

[ordinaryjelly]

I am just back in bed, been outside in my wheelchair for nearly 1hr30mins and it was ace.

I have been given my own 1-2-1 nurse/carer and she sits in my room quietly and is just good company. I hadn't realised how much I needed that, plus she is ace for the mental health chat and so on.

Trying hard to find these positives.

 

[ordinaryjelly]

Morning all.

Happy Mother's Day to ask the silly bitches mamas. Those who have their babies in their arms and of course those that don't Hope everyone had a lovely day with at least 5 minutes where you are not changing a nappy, being the snack bitch or refereeing a fight.

Mr Jelly had sent an envelope and told me to open it today. It was cards from the children. Which made me cry. Middle Jelly's handwriting is so good now and I have missed it all. He drew me a football pitch as well, obvs.

They aren't coming to see me today because they are going to see MIL, I am glad because going there is a bit more fun for the children than coming to sit here in a hospital with me.

Hope everyone has a good day. X

 

[Hope96]

I'm so emotionally drained. Just want to be happy and not cry every single day.

 

[Rxt156]

you’re not mini melon are you I’ve just put you to bed

LOL now that would be a plot twist

What a few days its been. The baby will not shut the fuck up crying. I love him but OMG does your head in doesn’t it. Took him to my parents then the fella took the baby to his parents to give me a break. Christ the noise goes right through you. I appreciated the peace but don’t think men understand how hard it is when you’re alone most of the day when they’re at work and the crying is AALLLL DAAAYYY. The baby is asleep now on me so I’m basically stuck here until I die

 

[Boredofthegram]

Morning all. Was woken up by mini bored with his breakfast in bed for me bless him.

Hope everyone has a good Sunday.

 

[ordinaryjelly]

Morning all.

Hope everyone slept well and that those who are poorly are feeling better.

I have had about four hours sleep and feel like shit. It's raining here and really grey and miserable which doesn't help.

 

[watermelon sugar]

I had mini corn dogs

then I had fried chicken and fries! There was gravy on the side too. A posh kfc basically. My bf had Cajun steak

then I had an ice cream sandwich

🤌

 

[watermelon sugar]

@Boredofthegram so cute I can’t wait till mini melon can make me cards and stuff

I got a mug

a pair of pj’s and a box of raffaelo’s (my faves) he’s also ordered us a McDonald’s breakie