Body dysmorphia

[Slaybutter]

After a relatively good day yesterday I feel like everything has hit me with a ton of bricks this morning. I’ve pretty much cried from the moment I got up and got in the bath until now I’m currently sat on my floor surrounded by clothes because so far the 5 outfits I’ve tried on just look hideous and show all my lumps and bumps. I literally don’t even wanna face the world but I’ve got to go to work

iirc from the what are you watching thread, you’ve been binge watching kardashians? they’re sooooo often to blame for people becoming dissatisfied with their appearances i would seriously suspect that they might be having an impact on you now?

 

[Fanny Muchmore]

You are very kind.

I've had one session of EMDR therapy so far for my BDD, it has helped with one particular trigger memory (my grandmother telling me I was fat when I was around 8 years old) but I still struggle a lot.

 

[natx]

Oh guys It’s so so hard to have those feelings about yourself but I promise CBT really really helps. As well as avoiding triggers and exercise really helped me control my BDD.

 

[natx]

You are very kind.

I've had one session of EMDR therapy so far for my BDD, it has helped with one particular trigger memory (my grandmother telling me I was fat when I was around 8 years old) but I still struggle a lot.

It’s so tough but having at least one session will help so much as you have been able to recognise and identify a trigger that makes you understand more why you feel the way you do. Keep going and over time you will be able to avoid triggers and understand things more xx

 

[natx]

No girl! Please don’t think like that!
I know it’s so hard not to think that way. I bet you look lovely! X

Sorry to dig up an old thread but I thought better to do that than start a new one.

I got sent a video of myself and two of my friends having fun at one of their houses, at am impromptu birthday party for the other one (happened yesterday). Instead of thinking 'look at us all having a great time', my immediate first thought was 'Jesus I look fucking hideous, look at that fat fucking face. Of course THEY look gorgeous'.

 

[ATV2021]

I had/have BDD. I didn't find CBT helpful for me personally (I got assigned an AWFUL therapist who tried to get me to change my mindset....by forcing me to eat a food I said I didn't like (as was a fussy child anyway) and now I REALLY hate it!).

I'm becoming slowly more accepting but I still definitely have days and binges of eating which I'm also trying to work on. Life coaching/self love work is definitely helping... mine ramped up after I lost 3 stone on SW as I had an image in my head but the reality didn't match that so it got worse. I look at photos of me now from then and I'm like damn I looked lovely just didn't see it then. That was 10 years ago now.

I'm trying hard - I go to the gym but not with a weight loss focus but a strength one, trying to rephrase my attitude to food (i.e there is no good or bad food...just food...and try to pick more protein type choices for example). Its so hard - I'm not fat, I know this but it will creep in still and be like my god you're vile. You look so boring etc. I'm naturally wide in terms of skeleton and tall (plus bullied at school) so I need to learn to stand up tall still.... and just be me. It's a proper naff condition but maybe look into hypnotherapy, life coaching etc. It's a long process outta it - I'm still going but only really started putting in the self love work in September last year so learning to be more patient (after I did Cambridge diet to rid the LD weight as quickly as possible...sigh lol)

 

[soymilk]

I'm not sure I have it, I suspect I do and my family suggest that I do. I've been battling with eating disorders on/off since I was like 16 and although I'm better, there are days and even periods of time when it's so difficult.
I've had many occasions when I've cried and cancelled going somewhere bc I thought I looked fat or that people would be talking about the way I looked.
One of the worst things is seeing my bf react to me when I'm in this mood bc he obviously doesn't see it and it's horrible for him to love someone who doesn't love themselves.
thanks @WilmaHun for this thread, it's nice to be able to talk about this with people who get it

 

[WilmaHun]

iirc from the what are you watching thread, you’ve been binge watching kardashians? they’re sooooo often to blame for people becoming dissatisfied with their appearances i would seriously suspect that they might be having an impact on you now?

ive felt like this long before I started watching the kardashians, but I do know what you mean.

I think it goes a bit deeper for me than being influenced by what I’m watching though

 

[WilmaHun]

After a relatively good day yesterday I feel like everything has hit me with a ton of bricks this morning. I’ve pretty much cried from the moment I got up and got in the bath until now I’m currently sat on my floor surrounded by clothes because so far the 5 outfits I’ve tried on just look hideous and show all my lumps and bumps. I literally don’t even wanna face the world but I’ve got to go to work

 

[Saddlesoap]

@WilmaHun as the OP, how are you doing?