I kmow becky reads here, we all know.I've ummed and ahhed if I should share this, but sod it.
I'd like to post my story in the slight chance she may read and have a little compassion for those who are struggling hugely.
I have been victim of a stalker, a absolute freak who lived 2 doors away terrorised me for almost 11 months, (we live in his childhood home, things started when we put a patio in)
From mind games to indecent exposure, to stealing a key to my house, to starring at me wearing Halloween masks and holding a knife, he is finally in prison awaiting trial (due to covid he's been on remand for 11 months)
2 weeks ago I got a phone call from the police saying that after court I would not be allowed to return home, other than with a police escort to get a bag of clothes.
I have to leave my home permanently , and have been desperately trying to find a new place to stay.
We are extremely lucky in that I now have a temporary place to stay (move on 14th December, court is 17th)
My mental health is shot, I suffer panic attacks daily, my partner works but is on an over time ban now, so Christmas for me and my boys this year will be utterly shocking.
I'll have no floor, no presents, and yesterday I had to text a local "food family (similar to food bank) to see if they could put us on the list for a Christmas hamper.
I've always worked.
Weve always paid our way. We get zero help.
My life is a car crash this year and I am DREADING all of Christmas. Every part.
I am so ashamed, and yet this isn't my fault. I was the victim of a sex offender.
I lose my home this Christmas.
I have older boys who understand and are being amazing (13 16 and 18)but I also have a 3 year old who can't wait for santa.
Becky. Please, I ask you this from a mother to mother, stop wasting, stop throwing cash around like it's confetti, I would give anything to have 1 Christmas tree, or 1 set of lights, in a safe home this year.
There are such bigger things than followers, because no matter how little my family have this year, we will be safe,and they are slowly getting their mama back after such a horrific time.
Please, have some compassion for those who are fighting the hardest fucking battles.
I beg you.