I don't know what's wrong with me

[bunnyboo]

I don't feel real. And it's really difficult to explain all this, I think I'm heading towards some sort of breakdown.

So about 2 nights ago I was lying in bed watching YouTube on my laptop when all of the sudden I just thought "I'm not real, none of this is real, I'm not real, everything is an illusion" and my vision started going black, the room was spinning and I could feel myself disappearing. I snapped back to reality just as fast as it started happening and I was so scared. I literally had to feel my face and body to make sure I was still here and afterwords I just sat there trying to make sense of what just happened.

Ever since then I've felt really weird and can't help but keep questioning everything around me. When I look in the mirror now all I can think is "am I really here? Am I real?". The whole thing has shaken me up really bad, and is probably one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me. I really wish I could blame this all on being drunk or high or something but I was completely sober.

And now I don't know what to do. I'm scared.

Does anyone know what I should do? I don't even know if I exist at this point.

 

[stopthescams]

Hey, take deep breathes. You’re not alone in this but this sounds like dissociating. I’ve definitely had this happen to me before and it is scary. I didn’t know what to do but I looked it up and it’s quite common. Do you have anxiety or depression or another mental health diagnosis because this could be a symptom. I’m not a doctor obviously but I just want you to know you’re not alone in this happening and it does pass.

 

[littlepup]

Grounding techniques might help you.

Sane helpline and Shout text line may also offer some advice.

I’m not qualified to say what’s going on but I would agree disassociation sounds likely. Please look at grounding and see if it might help.
Don’t be afraid to call 111 if you feel that you need to or 999 if you’re feeling in danger.

I hope you can find something to help xx

 

[bunnyboo]

Hey, take deep breathes. You’re not alone in this but this sounds like dissociating. I’ve definitely had this happen to me before and it is scary. I didn’t know what to do but I looked it up and it’s quite common. Do you have anxiety or depression or another mental health diagnosis because this could be a symptom. I’m not a doctor obviously but I just want you to know you’re not alone in this happening and it does pass.

Yeah I have C-PTSD and generalised anxiety disorder already. I'm used to panic attacks, but this whole ordeal is terrifying. Thank you for your message though, it is honestly comforting to know this a thing others have experienced <3

 

[2xblended]

You're dissociating. The specific type you're describing is derealization. Please phone a mental health helpline. It's terrifying but I assure you, you are okay and will be ok. It's an overwhelm of anxiety that causes it and it happens to a lot of us, usually when we least expect it. Reach out for help and they will coach you through grounding techniques. Stay safe

 

[veryfondoftea]

Hey, my husband has experienced this before. He has hypnotherapy which he found really helpful. You’re not alone x