How bad has 2020 been for you?

[Kandy floss]

She needs to get out! No one realises the true extent of abuse until you find the courage to leave! Even if it’s not physical abuse yet it will turn that way. I never listened and ignored signs for years. It wasn’t until he hurt me and I couldn’t hide it that I stood up for myself.

Hopefully she will realise sooner rather than later. We’ve tried talking to her but it seems to push her further away so we’re a bit lost in what to do as we don’t want to push her more to him and completely lose contact glad that you managed to get out!! I was in a controlling relationship when younger which did end up violent at the end so know it can be difficult, just really hard to watch and know what to do for the best too!

 

[rh93]

2020 hasn't been too bad for me personally I'm grateful to say. I've adapted to WFH since March after thinking I wasn't going to like it at first and have not been affected financially by the pandemic. I live on my own so I have enjoyed peace and quiet during lockdown although it has at times been very lonely and mentally challenging to not have any social interactions but I do call family regularly.

 

[Dipdab]

Postponed my wedding in August but was lucky we were able to have a small legal ceremony in December whilst our area was still in tier 2. Feeling very grateful so can’t complain about 2020 too much

 

[bunnyboo]

Working from home has been a huge plus, that's something I guess. And I'm grateful that I'm still in employment considering the times that are in it.

But overall, the more time that passes.. the more hopeless and empty I feel. Depression is so cruel, because the feeling of hopelessness has been consuming me to the point where I just feel empty on the inside. It's really hard to articulate how I feel, but what I can say is that I feel like I'm fighting a war that I'm losing every day.

 

[Saddlesoap]

*** for me.

It's been manageable. Both husband's and my work is stable so we have not lost anything financially. For me the negatives have been missing family, friends and trips/gigs. All of which are totally manageable, just frustrating. Husband is clinically vulnerable, so has barely left the house, but he's ok.

 

[LittleMy]

It’s been tit and I’m not going to sugarcoat it.

Yes there are people out there who’ve had it worse, and I feel for them deeply, but that doesn’t mean that I have to pretend it’s been all sunshine and rainbows when it hasn’t. Mentally, it’s been a total mindfuck; a drain. The fact that you can’t do what you like on a whim, the loss of freedom, living in fear of passing the virus on to others, it’s completely changed everything. I avoided people even when restrictions were lifted in summer because of the scaremongering and fear that the media have drummed into us the entire year. My big concern is that when I’m able to live life freely again, I won’t want to. I wasn’t the most sociable creature prior to Covid, I also worry about it’s effect on my young children who have more than enough struggles in life as is.

It’s also been physically exhausting. Working in a care home during the March lockdown was horrendous; we were like sitting ducks and by the time we were provided with appropriate PPE and allowed to wear masks, the damage was done. It was no wonder I ended up catching it. I didn’t stand a chance and neither did my colleagues or the people in our care who sadly passed away. I hate that my life revolves around work and home with nothing to look forward to, and I realise I feel so negatively just now because it’s Winter -it’s cold, it’s miserable and I’m utterly spent from a year of non-stop “Covid.”

There is no escaping it.