ED/Anorexia

TwooTwooTwitTwitTwoo · Sep 9, 2023

Thread created at the request of a newer member @HiyaCath!

General gist is for anyone who has an historic diagnosis who is struggling again and feel they might need some support but obviously it's a thread for anyone who wants to post.

HiyaCath! · Sep 9, 2023

Thank you

I wrote in the "for anybody struggling thread" about my Ana struggles @TwooTwooTwitTwitTwoo kindly made a thread, for me and anyone else who is has this illness.

what I wrote on that other thread:

I tried searching for an ED/Anorexia thread but only found two threads about bulimia.

I developed anorexia at 13, (I'm now 36), I had intermissions of recovery from 13 to 25, I am currently going through a period of going back to my old ways. I do also have depression, anxiety, and mild OCD.

I am trying to fight against it, but it's hard.

Beetle. · Sep 10, 2023

Just wanted to drop in and send you some love

I’ve struggled with ED stuff on and off over the years. It’s nowhere near as bad as it once was, but those thoughts and behaviours do try their best to creep back in to my head. I have to be careful. I’m so sorry you’re struggling. It sounds like a really tough time for you right now.

Annyct · Sep 10, 2023

HiyaCath! said:
Thank you
I wrote in the "for anybody struggling thread" about my Ana struggles @TwooTwooTwitTwitTwoo kindly made a thread, for me and anyone else who is has this illness.

what I wrote on that other thread:

I tried searching for an ED/Anorexia thread but only found two threads about bulimia.

I developed anorexia at 13, (I'm now 36), I had intermissions of recovery from 13 to 25, I am currently going through a period of going back to my old ways. I do also have depression, anxiety, and mild OCD.

I am trying to fight against it, but it's hard.

Your timeline and diagnoses are almost exactly the same as mine (I’m 38), im so sorry you’re struggling right now, I go through phases where the anorexic and dysmorphia side of my brain is more prevalent but I try and keep it in check to protect my daughter. Sending love and am here if you need

HiyaCath! · Sep 10, 2023

Beetle. said:
Just wanted to drop in and send you some love I’ve struggled with ED stuff on and off over the years. It’s nowhere near as bad as it once was, but those thoughts and behaviours do try their best to creep back in to my head. I have to be careful. I’m so sorry you’re struggling. It sounds like a really tough time for you right now.

Thank you

It's always there isn't it, even if it's just lurking in the background of our minds.
I'm going to try my best to not let it take over again. It's just, it's hard to fight against it sometimes.

Annyct said:
Your timeline and diagnoses are almost exactly the same as mine (I’m 38), im so sorry you’re struggling right now, I go through phases where the anorexic and dysmorphia side of my brain is more prevalent but I try and keep it in check to protect my daughter. Sending love and am here if you need

Thank you.
It's a horrible illness isn't.
It's great that you have your daughter to help keep you strong, although I'm sure it still must be so difficult for you

Carapop · Sep 12, 2023

Very similar story here, 39, about to enter inpatient treatment for the very first time.

Lilbear1 · Sep 13, 2023

Carapop said:
Very similar story here, 39, about to enter inpatient treatment for the very first time.

Sending you lots of

HiyaCath! · Sep 13, 2023

Carapop said:
Very similar story here, 39, about to enter inpatient treatment for the very first time.

That must be so scary. It's a good thing, getting help, but still daunting. Sending you lots of love.

Carapop · Sep 14, 2023

Thanks so much. I’ve never had any help at all. And now it’s the most intensive help available! It’s taken me this long in life to get a GP who takes it seriously. I have no idea what’s ahead of me and don’t know how one even begins to prepare. My biggest concern is that by the end of the stay I’ll have returned to a “healthy” weight but still be a mess emotionally/ psychologically. Folk won’t be so concerned when I’m no longer resembling the walking dead. I’ve just realised that as I’ve written it. What a self obsessed madam I’ve become.

Annyct · Sep 14, 2023

Carapop said:
Thanks so much. I’ve never had any help at all. And now it’s the most intensive help available! It’s taken me this long in life to get a GP who takes it seriously. I have no idea what’s ahead of me and don’t know how one even begins to prepare. My biggest concern is that by the end of the stay I’ll have returned to a “healthy” weight but still be a mess emotionally/ psychologically. Folk won’t be so concerned when I’m no longer resembling the walking dead. I’ve just realised that as I’ve written it. What a self obsessed madam I’ve become.

Absolutely not self obsessed. I’ve even an impatient many times and had a YouTube channel talking about my eating disorder, if ever you wanna chat send me a message

Carapop · Sep 14, 2023

Annyct said:
Absolutely not self obsessed. I’ve even an impatient many times and had a YouTube channel talking about my eating disorder, if ever you wanna chat send me a message

Ah thanks so much. There’s no facility for private messages here. I’m avoiding a lot of social media about it as I don’t want to hear any horror stories! I hope your experiences were positive and you’re in a stronger place now.