Hi silverback! I’m diagnosed with them also and just had my first therapy session last week! How are you feeling? Having a pretty few crappy days lately wish more people aka family would understand what I’m going through and how my diagnosis affect me but made out to be a drama queenHello
I was happy to see this thread pop up today. I’ve had MH problems for 30 odd years. Currently battling CPTSD and anxiety. In what feels like my 800th therapy bout at the moment. I honestly think I could do with therapy every week for the rest of my life but can’t afford it!
Might be London specific but they have a few other areas too. I told my sister to email a few and get on a few lists.Hello
I was happy to see this thread pop up today. I’ve had MH problems for 30 odd years. Currently battling CPTSD and anxiety. In what feels like my 800th therapy bout at the moment. I honestly think I could do with therapy every week for the rest of my life but can’t afford it!
Hey!Hi silverback! I’m diagnosed with them also and just had my first therapy session last week! How are you feeling? Having a pretty few crappy days lately wish more people aka family would understand what I’m going through and how my diagnosis affect me but made out to be a drama queenso pretty shit day today! But this thread is for ranting, raving and support as I know there’s a lot of us out there who understand and need it 🩹
You're not too broken and you can recover. I read and watched everything I could about BPD. This was my favourite documentary.Thought I would join a little!
I am diagnosed with CPTSD and BPD.
I have had brief therapy before but finding it very difficult to find one that will take me on! Got stuck feeling like I'm too broken to be helped!
Unfortunately can't afford to go private!
I went to a GP years ago and as my CPSD is due to childhood sexual abuse, they referred me to Rape Crisis.You're not too broken and you can recover. I read and watched everything I could about BPD. This was my favourite documentary.
For BPD. I had no idea what I was even feeling. I had a cartoon chart with different emotions so could learn to identify them. This book was good for just learning how to cope in general. There's a few charities that can support you when you're in a crisis mode.
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This was the one I contacted before and they were lovely.
Maytree | We’re open to suicidal feelings
Maytree offer a free 4 night, 5 day stay for adults, with the opportunity to be heard in complete confidence, in a caring, safe environment.www.maytree.org.uk
For trauma it was about trying to calm the nervous system down.
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I also joined a few support groups. It's just one day at a time.
Have you been to your GP? Are you on the waiting list?
I'm sorry that sounds so frustrating and that you've had to wait for so long. Someone I know also worked at this charity. I'll see if I can find others too.I went to a GP years ago and as my CPSD is due to childhood sexual abuse, they referred me to Rape Crisis.
I attended but I didn't find it very good. We just sat in a room and she asked me how my day was and that was it.
So I stopped after 4 sessions as that's all she did every time.
Years later, during lockdown, I realised how much it was affecting me, that along with other struggles from my childhood/adulthood, anxiety ect so I went back to the doctors and they told me it was all self referral now and gave me a website to go on to self refer. I self referred and their response was basically that they can't help me because they think I need to deal with the childhood sexual abuse and ptsd before I tackle the anxiety and adult issues. So referred me to rape crisis again.
I got put on a 14 month waiting list with Rape Crisis. I did have a few phone call sessions about 6 months in, but they were explaining how to cope with flashbacks whilst I'm on the waiting list. A year and a half went by, still heard nothing. Left it until 20 months. Contacted them and was told they no longer offer counselling for hisotirxal sexual abuse and now focus on current sexual violence.
So I went back to the first place and they said they can't help me still unless I deal with that first but they don't know anywhere else that specialise in historical sexual abuse.
And I gave upbecause without paying, which I can't afford, I don't know where else to turn
There’s something my therapist told me about I also get a lot of nightmares it’s to do with cptsd let me try and find it you basically change the narrative of the nightmare. This man who does it has worked with people with ptsd, war veterans I feel the exact same way I can’t remember ever feeling safe its coming up to a year free from pysch wards which is also making me feel weirdHey!
I’m up and down. I have a lot of nightmares which are very hard to deal with and I feel anxious all the time- like I can’t relax or ever feel safe. Nobody should be making you out to be a drama queen! People should be kind and supportive of you.
Thank you! I'll have a look into them both!I'm sorry that sounds so frustrating and that you've had to wait for so long. Someone I know also worked at this charity. I'll see if I can find others too.
Second not exactly free but £1 for every £1000 earnt.
Not saying you have to do this but I have in the past donated to someone's gofundme for therapy.
I only just stumbled on this thread looking for something similar. I'm glad rainbowlemon mentioned One in Four. Their book https://oneinfour.org.uk/product/the-warrior-within-handbook/ really helped me to understand the lasting impact of what happened to me. As someone else said I'd been to Rape Crisis and had a similar unhelpful experience. I went for therapy in my 20s and just had CBT or just talking about the past. Neither of which helped much or permanently.Thank you! I'll have a look into them both!
I've had several bouts of therapy at different points in my life. I reckon we're only able to deal with what comes up at that time. Therapy in my 20s helped me get by but therapy in my late 30s really changed things and I suddenly realised a load of stuff that had impacted me that I had not really let myself think about. It was important and life changing but also I felt pretty stupid that I'd been vulnerable and mistreated and hadn't even been noticing. . .So glad there's a thread on this! After struggling for a while in several aspects of my life I decided to get a referral to see a therapist. This will be the third time I will be going to therapy - the first time was when I was diagnosed with ADD in my mid 20s and the second time was a few years ago when I was struggling with my confidence. Both times were helpful in some ways but felt like I was just 'scratching the surface' of my issues. When I saw this new therapist last week she asked about what I was struggling with then delved a bit deeper and asked me to tell her about my life - she said it sounds like (C)PTSD and that I would need to be referred to a therapist who specialises in treating it through EMDR. She even said that the CBT I had before isn't as effective in the treatment of (C)PTSD as EMDR so I am looking forward to starting and hopefully actually getting somewhere with it. I have another appointment this week and she's going to help me with the referral etc but it looks like most places near me have a waiting list and around a 6 week wait before the initial intake.
I'm not sure why but it feels like the years of just 'getting by' and struggling with certain things have now come to a head and I'm just realising so many things about myself and patterns in my life and feel like I need proper help to be able to move forward. I can't even really describe it but it's like just this realisation has triggered something and it has me questioning so many of my beliefs, my relationships etc... plus I'm exhausted all the time now, which seems to have come out of nowhere. I feel like I can never have enough sleep and struggle through my day before collapsing on the sofa and scrolling on my phone for hours because I have 0 energy for anything else. I just feel so burnt out and wonder if it's connected in some way. Is there anyone else who recognises this?
Thanks for everyone's suggestions in terms of reading etc. I actually have 'The Body Keeps the Score' but only managed a few pages last year so will definitely be reading that over the next few weeks!
yes. I find it gets bad when my anxiety is bad.Does anyone else struggle to concentrate on stuff? Really struggling with work at the moment.
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