I am not a big fan of self diagnosis but I have been wondering if I have some ADHD/ADD problems.
1) I can't focus on things for very long (currently have 8 different tabs open, all related to different topics and subjects and my brain wants me to open more and look at more different things too)
2) I hyperfixate on things massively for a short period of time - the only hobby I've got that isn't a hyperfixation really is running, but everything else I do I do for about 3 weeks then I get bored of it. I'll remember it a few months/years later and go back to it but I never do anything with enough consistency to be 'good' at anything.
3) I cannot concentrate when there's more than one thing going on. I have to pause Youtube/physically turn off the TV if my OH is trying to talk to me, even if it's about what we're watching.
4) I can't do anything without something else going on. In the past five minutes, whilst trying to write this post, I've had two different youtube videos on, checked my instagram twice, scrolled through facebook and gone to make a cup of coffee.
5) I struggle to sleep at night and often can't stop 'racing thoughts'.
6) Sitting down to relax actually causes me to feel really anxious, I always have to be doing *something* and if I'm not I feel really upset or sick about it (classic example is my annual leave - if I have four days off, for instance, I feel like I'm wasting it if I'm not doing something with it, but also at the back of my mind I just want some time to stop and not do anything but my brain hates that idea).
7) If I'm presented with too many tasks at once, I very quickly get overwhelmed which leads to nothing getting done (with housework I'm starting to get around this by doing a system where I block out 30 - 45 minutes and focus on one part of the room, but as soon as that part is done I'm done).
8) My working memory is appalling and I will forget things people have said to me seconds after it was said, or where I've put something that I've just been holding. I'm not so bad at this at work because I've been 'trained' to do things in a certain way but if you ask me to switch it up and not go about a work task in the rigid manner that I've been taught, I forget lots of things and have to go back and re do it.
9) I have multiple planners and diaries on the go and I'm still never truly aware of my comings and goings (bit tongue in cheek that one!)
10) I am awful at time management - time doesn't seem to hold much of a logical flow for me. When I get up for work I have to get up about 30 minutes before I leave the house which is just enough time to get up, shower/toilet, brush teeth, get dressed and get out the door. If I was to get up 45 minutes before I had to leave the house I would 100% be late because I'd get distracted and lose track of time. I'd think "Oh I can put a load of washing on!" and then spend 20 minutes wandering the house putting the washing on, picking up random bits along the way etc.