Thank god that's over - my referral for the wellbeing service came through today so I had my assessment appointment at 9 and it has clarified two things for me:
a) I am doing miles better than I was when referred
b) It obviously works wonders for some people but I
really don't think therapy is for me - I hated the power imbalance and I hated the 'hmm...yes...hmm' ing and I hated that it made me think about things that I've naturally not been thinking about recently (as opposed to forcing myself not to think about them).
If my mood starts dipping and things start going pear shaped then I'll reconsider but for now I think I'll be in a better place without dredging up the past. Onwards and upwards and now to actually try and focus on work