So the situation is as follows
I have crippling social anxiety and have for years. Despite this I went and got a qualification for a job I’ve always wanted. The qualification required work based training. The company I did it with gave me a temporary contact. The people from HR verbally promised me permanent work but when it came to the interviews gave the job to someone else. This devastated me, and set me back miles with my social anxiety. I felt like they’d built me up, then broken me down again. It wouldn’t have been so bad if they hadn’t literally promised me work.
In hindsight they shouldn’t of done that and I shouldn’t have expected to be treated any different from any other candidate. All I can say is that I was very vulnerable due to my mental health.
This was all a couple of years ago. I feel like I’ve finally got myself to the point where I want to work again. So I have been applying to some companies. I was lucky enough to be invited to interview next week.
However I’m in the mindset where I don’t think I will turn up. I don’t feel like I can physically walk through the door of the company and be in an interview situation. I can’t put into words exactly why. All I know is I feel that terrified, I’d rather not go.
I really don’t think anyone would choose me and I feel I’m going to fail before I walk in - to be fair , fear aside I am awful at interviews- my mind goes blank, I can’t answer anything.
It’s really difficult because part of me would really love the job and know it would help my confidence.
Has anyone else get like this? And any advice on how to overcome it? Feeling a bit useless here.
I have crippling social anxiety and have for years. Despite this I went and got a qualification for a job I’ve always wanted. The qualification required work based training. The company I did it with gave me a temporary contact. The people from HR verbally promised me permanent work but when it came to the interviews gave the job to someone else. This devastated me, and set me back miles with my social anxiety. I felt like they’d built me up, then broken me down again. It wouldn’t have been so bad if they hadn’t literally promised me work.
In hindsight they shouldn’t of done that and I shouldn’t have expected to be treated any different from any other candidate. All I can say is that I was very vulnerable due to my mental health.
This was all a couple of years ago. I feel like I’ve finally got myself to the point where I want to work again. So I have been applying to some companies. I was lucky enough to be invited to interview next week.
However I’m in the mindset where I don’t think I will turn up. I don’t feel like I can physically walk through the door of the company and be in an interview situation. I can’t put into words exactly why. All I know is I feel that terrified, I’d rather not go.
I really don’t think anyone would choose me and I feel I’m going to fail before I walk in - to be fair , fear aside I am awful at interviews- my mind goes blank, I can’t answer anything.
It’s really difficult because part of me would really love the job and know it would help my confidence.
Has anyone else get like this? And any advice on how to overcome it? Feeling a bit useless here.