I can be referred to the assisted conception clinic but apparently it’s pointless because my bmi is too high and it will be rejected. And my blood tests I paid for privately were ‘pointless’ and so I have to have more done but they’ll only show us all what we already know, what I’ve known most of my bloody life, I have PCOS. I was simply told to lose weight, like I’ve ever found that easy in my life outside of times of very disordered eating (or the assistance of a hormonal coil which I don’t want because I’m trying to get pregnant). Then, I got a lecture about my medication. I came off my SSRIs last year and my entire world came crashing down around me mental health wise. Looking back, I’ve never been so unwell with my anxiety as I was during the time I had no meds. Some of that was the situation I was in (awful, awful job), but I couldn’t not be on my medication. Instead of going back to my ‘normal’ dose I settled on the compromise of the lowest possible dose that most people just use as a gentle introduction to brain chemistry altering drugs before they increase up to 4 times as much. It holds me, but it’s a compromise.
I asked about my facial hair and acne and was given a vaniqa prescription and told my skin was fine (it’s actually ok today, in fairness), but then followed a massive lecture about how I probably can’t take Vaniqa if I’m pregnant. I felt like this bad person who has already attempted to duck up a baby that doesn’t even exist by poisoning it with medication and creams and being too large.
I didn’t expect to walk out with a visit from the stork planned but that was pretty brutal. Trying to think positively, she at least suggested MrDragName books himself in for semen analysis and pointed out it’s not all about the woman, so that was ‘nice’. But I guess it’s all bleeping pointless unless I lose weight anyway. Sorry for bringing my TTC chat to the PCOS thread but I cannot face the TTC thread. I had to leave when it felt like everyone got a positive test result even though I’m happy for others, honest guv.